LostGirl11 Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 I'm living on tea, coke and cigarettes. I haven't had a meal for over a week now. The thought and smell of food makes me feel sick. I have tried, but I can only manage a couple of mouth fulls before I either start crying or want to vomit. Why can't I just eat like a normal person!
TaraMaiden Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 Because what your emotions are experiencing, isn't normal. You're going through an upheaval, so respect what your body tells you, but look at yourself in the mirror and decide that if the thought of living a normal regime is alien, at least live an 'abnormal' one - but healthily. Drink more water. Try to eat small portions (I'm thinking one or two at a time) of grapes, and maybe the odd almond. Eat things you can pick at, not have to sit down to. Take vitamins and food supplements to expand your nutritional intake. The most important are B12 and Zinc. Honestly. Star small. It's OK. It's understandable. your body, at one moment or another, will begin to pick up. 4
stillafool Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 Are you saying "coke" as in coca cola? I hope so if not please stop that right away before you disappear. Try drinking chicken broth with some saltines until you feel better. He is not worth you depriving your body of food. 1
Author LostGirl11 Posted January 11, 2013 Author Posted January 11, 2013 Because what your emotions are experiencing, isn't normal. You're going through an upheaval, so respect what your body tells you, but look at yourself in the mirror and decide that if the thought of living a normal regime is alien, at least live an 'abnormal' one - but healthily. Drink more water. Try to eat small portions (I'm thinking one or two at a time) of grapes, and maybe the odd almond. Eat things you can pick at, not have to sit down to. Take vitamins and food supplements to expand your nutritional intake. The most important are B12 and Zinc. Honestly. Star small. It's OK. It's understandable. your body, at one moment or another, will begin to pick up. Makes me so mad! I normally love food. HE wouln't let anyone or anything affect his appetite! Yet here I am practically killing myself slowly. I will try with the picking, sitting down to meal drains me.
geegirl Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 Makes me so mad! I normally love food. HE wouln't let anyone or anything affect his appetite! Yet here I am practically killing myself slowly. I will try with the picking, sitting down to meal drains me. It's normal. Just as Tara mentioned. Try picking at foods. Little bites. I couldn't stomach food too in the beginning. After staying in bed for a week living on liquids, I got so hungry when I woke from the dead, I stuffed on Chinese and I felt sick. After that I ate a cracker, grapes, dried fruit, peanuts, chips...etc. I could not eat full meals. Take your vitamins. That's easy enough to just swallow. Drink a lot of water and juices. Try protein shakes. If you are struggling with your mental and emotional health, take care of yourself physically. It will help ease the toll on your body.
Author LostGirl11 Posted January 11, 2013 Author Posted January 11, 2013 It's normal. Just as Tara mentioned. Try picking at foods. Little bites. I couldn't stomach food too in the beginning. After staying in bed for a week living on liquids, I got so hungry when I woke from the dead, I stuffed on Chinese and I felt sick. After that I ate a cracker, grapes, dried fruit, peanuts, chips...etc. I could not eat full meals. Take your vitamins. That's easy enough to just swallow. Drink a lot of water and juices. Try protein shakes. If you are struggling with your mental and emotional health, take care of yourself physically. It will help ease the toll on your body. Yeah, I'm going to stay away from full meals. Feels as though the weight is falling off me though, not sure if that can happen from lack of food for a week or if it's the stress. I normally take pride in the way I look, but I can't even be bothered to shower!!, keep thinking 'What's the point, have nobody to look good for now have I'
geegirl Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 Yeah, I'm going to stay away from full meals. Feels as though the weight is falling off me though, not sure if that can happen from lack of food for a week or if it's the stress. I normally take pride in the way I look, but I can't even be bothered to shower!!, keep thinking 'What's the point, have nobody to look good for now have I' Yes, the weight will fly off and you will lose muscle mass because you have zero protein intake. In a week, I could not fit my clothes. I didn't take care of my appearance either. I didn't wash my hair or shower for a week when I was dead. Even after, it took me weeks to start caring for my appearance. Not so much, who's looking at me, but my motivation was at an all time low.
first love Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 I normally take pride in the way I look, but I can't even be bothered to shower!!, keep thinking 'What's the point, have nobody to look good for now have I' Do it for yourself, because you deserve it
Author LostGirl11 Posted January 11, 2013 Author Posted January 11, 2013 Yes, the weight will fly off and you will lose muscle mass because you have zero protein intake. In a week, I could not fit my clothes. I didn't take care of my appearance either. I didn't wash my hair or shower for a week when I was dead. Even after, it took me weeks to start caring for my appearance. Not so much, who's looking at me, but my motivation was at an all time low. I'm actually gross. Can't believe I've let someone do this to me. I have no motivation either, I don't want anyone looking at me, it just makes me sad that I used to make myself look good for him.
geegirl Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 I'm actually gross. Can't believe I've let someone do this to me. I have no motivation either, I don't want anyone looking at me, it just makes me sad that I used to make myself look good for him. Lost, you are grieving. It's going to take some time to get back to a routine, to find your light again. It's going to take time for you to find joy in the little things again. It's going to take time for you to feel good about yourself, but don't stay there too long. But you are allowed. Stop beating yourself up over everything. It's bad enough you just got hammered emotionally by your ex, now you pick up that hammer and start whacking yourself as well. Cut yourself a break, work through this the best way you can and be easy on yourself. It will all come back to you again, slowly but surely.
sadpanda87 Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 very sorry to hear that, it does happen to the best of us take up the advice above, eat smaller proportions. remember to take in carbs and some protein. in the end, this wont hurt him but will be devastating to you and those that care about you. and here we all do care, we dont want to see you suffer. a lot of us have been in the same shoes, take it slow... you'll get through this
Author LostGirl11 Posted January 11, 2013 Author Posted January 11, 2013 Lost, you are grieving. It's going to take some time to get back to a routine, to find your light again. It's going to take time for you to find joy in the little things again. It's going to take time for you to feel good about yourself, but don't stay there too long. But you are allowed. Stop beating yourself up over everything. It's bad enough you just got hammered emotionally by your ex, now you pick up that hammer and start whacking yourself as well. Cut yourself a break, work through this the best way you can and be easy on yourself. It will all come back to you again, slowly but surely. Maybe I'm being a little hard on myself, I don't know. I just miss him so much. Can't believe that I'm never going to see him again. Pissed off with people walking in and out of my life. But anyway.... How lond did it take you to start finding joy in the small things again? What kind of little things did you do to help yourself?
Loved77 Posted January 12, 2013 Posted January 12, 2013 Maybe I'm being a little hard on myself, I don't know. I just miss him so much. Can't believe that I'm never going to see him again. Pissed off with people walking in and out of my life. But anyway.... How lond did it take you to start finding joy in the small things again? What kind of little things did you do to help yourself? hey LostGirl you are not the only one going through this Last time I went through this it took me 3 months to start feeling I was going back to my normal self again. 6 months til I could function properly & 12 months to feel healed. It's been a month and i'm still force feeding. I have a banana, apple & yoghurt protein shake every morning. Just sip on it for 30mins. All you have to do is swallow. Drink water too. Try doing some exercise. LIke I said you might have to force yourself but the plan is that doing something positive will help you heal faster
stevie_23 Posted January 12, 2013 Posted January 12, 2013 I am only just now starting to have a bit of my normal appetite back again, and it's been 6 weeks. I am 5'7" and weighed 130lbs in June. My ex left me for a month back then (reasons he later explained), and I went down to 115lbs in 3 weeks. Then I put some of it back on but then 6 weeks ago he left me again (for good this time) and last week I was down to 108lbs. I couldn't eat a thing at first, except this particular breakfast protein drink which I love. Whenever I thought of food, saw food or smelled food, I'd feel sick. It was all because I couldn't quiet my thoughts. The constant stress, anxiety, tension and horrible sadness and devastation was always there, like a nightmare I couldn't wake up from. Eventually I found I only craved junk food (chocolate mainly), and if I distracted myself with craptastic reality TV while stuffing it in my mouth, I could manage to eat it mindlessly. I actually finished my McDonalds Happy Meal today for the first time in 6 weeks. lol. A real accomplishment, eh? *patting myself on the back* I still have no appetite for "real" food though. The delicious, healthy foods I used to love. I have only really been eating so I don't pass out in the street or feel too unpleasantly empty in the stomach, but as I said, slowly now I'm coming back. I used to love food...it's a shame. Oh, and I also didn't shower for a week after he left me. Couldn't be bothered (and I too have always cared about my appearance) and couldn't stand to be there alone with just my thoughts and no outside distractions.
Author LostGirl11 Posted January 12, 2013 Author Posted January 12, 2013 I am only just now starting to have a bit of my normal appetite back again, and it's been 6 weeks. I am 5'7" and weighed 130lbs in June. My ex left me for a month back then (reasons he later explained), and I went down to 115lbs in 3 weeks. Then I put some of it back on but then 6 weeks ago he left me again (for good this time) and last week I was down to 108lbs. I couldn't eat a thing at first, except this particular breakfast protein drink which I love. Whenever I thought of food, saw food or smelled food, I'd feel sick. It was all because I couldn't quiet my thoughts. The constant stress, anxiety, tension and horrible sadness and devastation was always there, like a nightmare I couldn't wake up from. Eventually I found I only craved junk food (chocolate mainly), and if I distracted myself with craptastic reality TV while stuffing it in my mouth, I could manage to eat it mindlessly. I actually finished my McDonalds Happy Meal today for the first time in 6 weeks. lol. A real accomplishment, eh? *patting myself on the back* I still have no appetite for "real" food though. The delicious, healthy foods I used to love. I have only really been eating so I don't pass out in the street or feel too unpleasantly empty in the stomach, but as I said, slowly now I'm coming back. I used to love food...it's a shame. Oh, and I also didn't shower for a week after he left me. Couldn't be bothered (and I too have always cared about my appearance) and couldn't stand to be there alone with just my thoughts and no outside distractions. I've eaten a little today, not much but enough to keep me going. I'm making myself ill, I look like death. Well done for eating your happy meal. I'm having wraps for dinner tonight, kind of picky food. I really need a shower, but I cant be bothered. I'll probably start sobbing my heart out in there and slip or something stupid.
TaraMaiden Posted January 12, 2013 Posted January 12, 2013 Have a bath. But only 2" of water - drowning is NOT an option, and you don't risk losing the soap that way......... 1
Author LostGirl11 Posted January 12, 2013 Author Posted January 12, 2013 Have a bath. But only 2" of water - drowning is NOT an option, and you don't risk losing the soap that way......... Too long to be alone with my thoughts. What a sad state of affairs.
TaraMaiden Posted January 12, 2013 Posted January 12, 2013 use cold water - you'll be in and out of there in no time... and all you'll be thinking about is your freezing toosh..... C'mon girl - smile!!
Author LostGirl11 Posted January 12, 2013 Author Posted January 12, 2013 Never thought showering would be such a chore...ridiculous!
RespectfullyAlone Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 While I can have a shower, and also sleep now, I have zero appetite. Have lots 5kgs already and that constant sick, nervous, tension, butterflies feeling in your stomach never leaves me. As a guy I'm also losing muscle mass, but honestly right now I simply don't care. I'd rather waste away into nothing and just be done with it already.
stevie_23 Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 I was like this too. Then I rediscovered my love affair with junk food. Lol. No, seriously. Why do you not care if you shrink and wither away to nothing? Does it give you some small satisfaction that if you saw your ex again you could say LOOK WHAT **YOU** DID TO ME!!! Or something like that? This is what I’ve been like. I dropped a LOT of weight I never needed to lose in the first place. Then I kind of thought (once that constant horrible butterflies-in-stomach, nauseous, tension feeling finally started to ease a bit and I was able to blank my mind while eating so I could actually EAT a bit better), why punish myself for HIS benefit? A benefit that won’t come anyway cause he won’t be seeing me looking like a skeleton in the first place?
RespectfullyAlone Posted January 14, 2013 Posted January 14, 2013 I'm not punishing myself, rather do not care anymore. I honestly don't. My heart is breaking and that's more painful than feeling a need to eat.
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