jovan Posted January 10, 2013 Posted January 10, 2013 (edited) Am 24 years old and I have been in relationship for 5 years, and we lived together for 4 years. We had our ups and downs but we got past them and got really close. We were doing everything together, and were happy (at least I know I was). Anyhow December 21th she said (over the Skype) that she doesn't want a relationship anymore. Witch I found weird case just a day before that everything was okay, she even told me that she loved me. Backing up 3 weeks before that, I had to study and needed space, so we made a decision that she will be staying at her mom for 4 days each week and 3 days at my place. She was okay with that, even more then that, she wanted that 2. Anyhow we did see each other a bit less then usual but everything was okay, the fire was still burning and we were really passionate when we were together. And when we weren't we would talk on the phone 10 times a day exchanging affections. Anyhow she was staying at her mom's on 21th's and we were supposed to see each other that day. But she said she'd rather stay at home and chill (playing pc games watching tv etc), and I told her that I miss her and that I would really like to see her. She said that we will see eachother tomorrow. But that was no good for me case I had work next day and wont be home that whole day, and I was telling her that I will come and pick her up, and that I wont see her this weekend so much. So the phone line got cut off or something so I couldn't hear her and we moved our conversation on Skype, where she told me that she doesn't want a relationship anymore. And that her feeling's for me are changed. I couldn't believe in the things she were saying, so I called sick that day, and went straight to her mom's. I found her sleeping and i kissed her and I said that we can work things out. But she said she just doesn't want to. She had problems of her own and she just doesn't have strength for something like that. It broke my heart, our last kiss is tearing me apart and I feel that am falling and I have nothing to hold on too. I tried calling her and telling her how much I loved her, but she got colder and colder. She just doesn't care anymore, and I cant believe that she got over me so fast. She said that she moved on and so should I. And that there's no hope for us anymore. I stopped calling her, until yesterday when i called her up and told her that even if she changes her mind I wont take her back, case I could have forgiven her everything else, everything else but this, this never. She was a lil bit angry and asked me why did I even call her. I didn't know why I did but I had to tell her that I would never forgive her for this. And I wouldn't take her back even if she begged me. So I know that she's not right for me, and I need to move on, but i cant case I have problems living my life again. I cant study sleep or think about anything else but her. I love life and am a happy person, but this is just something I cant deal with. I miss her so much that I have problems breathing sometimes. And so much memories of us are all around me. I can see her everywhere. Every time my phone rings I hope its her. But she won't call, even if she does, nothing is changing the fact that I never would do something like that to her. I want to meet some1 new, fall in love again, but I don't think I can trust again. What to think, what to do, and how to healthy get over this station am in? Edited January 10, 2013 by jovan
Author jovan Posted January 10, 2013 Author Posted January 10, 2013 (edited) It seems to me that am doing worse today then yesterday. I feel like am not making any progress. Edited January 10, 2013 by jovan
Author jovan Posted January 11, 2013 Author Posted January 11, 2013 I miss her so much. I just cant believe that i meant so little to her. She was my whole world, and i have nothing to hold on too. Am lost
Minka333 Posted January 11, 2013 Posted January 11, 2013 Just try to remain strong. There's this quote i saw on FB: "Every exit is an entrance somewhere else.." It is ok to miss her. It's your time to grieve now. After that, the only time left will be to move on with life. Find happiness elsewhere. Be patient. That time will happen someday. 1
Author jovan Posted January 11, 2013 Author Posted January 11, 2013 I got nothing but time ty for support Minka
Author jovan Posted January 12, 2013 Author Posted January 12, 2013 NC day 4. Its not going bad. Still hurts but am sure I don't want to call her. I just cant believe that after everything she doesn't care about me! I mean we were best friends and did everything together till the BU day. And after that baaam she is over me :S
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