He broke up with me

[Eternal Sunshine]

Ugh. This guy sounds even worse than C.

[tigressA]

Awww...I wish I could hug you, sweetie.

 

I could use one. I got a lot last night, which was nice. I'm going out again next weekend to distract myself from the fact that he was supposed to have been here with me, so that's good. And in a few more weeks I'll be visiting a friend I haven't seen since the summer. That was another trip I was supposed to make with him, but I always have an awesome time with this friend, so I doubt I'll be thinking much at all of how it was supposed to be.

[Anela]

I just noticed I still had the poem he wrote me sitting on top of my set of nesting tables and the book he'd given me as a gag gift in my bookcase. I threw them away. Ripped the poem up first. What horsesh*t, writing a poem about me before we even met in person. Hindsight is 20/20...

 

When I read his OLD profile out loud to my friends at the bar last night (the revised version, after he got with me) they were all like "WTF is this guy for real?" and rolling their eyes. Basically it was just this massively pompous bragging session. You know how people say "When you have to say you're nice/caring/etc/etc...you're really not"? It was just like that.

 

And I was literally drowning in denial at the OKC incident...I remember all his posturing about being so aware of himself, his surroundings, other people, etc--yet he claimed to be unaware of what had changed on his own damn profile. You can't have it both ways.

 

Yeah, just getting myself nice and pissed again since I'm feeling kinda lonely now.

 

Remember what you said the other day: you don't need to care what a person like this thinks of you. At least your emotions are real, and you thought about pulling the plug first. You knew - and if there is a next time, you will most likely deal with it quicker (and this time it was only a few weeks). ♥

[veggirl]

T...honestly I think you need to look at this for what it was and be done with it. It was a whirlwind "love"'affair and you got swept up in potential. Too much crying is being done and waaaay too much energy is being given to a 2 month ldr. This is just crazy.

[Nightsky]

T...honestly I think you need to look at this for what it was and be done with it. It was a whirlwind "love"'affair and you got swept up in potential. Too much crying is being done and waaaay too much energy is being given to a 2 month ldr. This is just crazy.

 

I cry like this every day for the relationship that never was. 2 month ldr sounds just about right for this amount of crying. We have different crying measurements because I say T is doing just right. She feels things, I know cause I feel things too!

[beautifulfilipina]

Why don't you give him more space and time before you talk again.

[Anela]

I cry like this every day for the relationship that never was. 2 month ldr sounds just about right for this amount of crying. We have different crying measurements because I say T is doing just right. She feels things, I know cause I feel things too!

 

This is one instance in which I agree with you. I don't cry every day, though (anymore), and it ended up not being about the person, who was an utter douche who played head games. It was a combination of things, and I haven't been the same since. I wish I'd never known the *******.

 

Tigress also had something happen not that long before she met this guy - ups and downs there, then the whirlwind feelings that had her thinking he was "the one". I don't know how she feels about that now, but in my opinion, it's a lot to happen all at once.

[tigressA]

I really don't appreciate being told to just get over it because it wasn't a big deal. It was a big deal to me and I'm going to process it the way I'm going to process it. I've been moving along quite well, not that I need to justify myself. I haven't cried once since the day after it happened (Wednesday). Last night was the first night I didn't dream of him/us. Felt great.

 

And I just decided that I've spent enough time in this thread, going over what happened, so this is my last post in it. See ya.