When you say too much...Would you initiate communication after this?

[LostSoulTrain]

Hi all. I have couple of threads around here telling my story so look up if you want to see it. Anyway, it was turbulent relationship (affair really) with lots of ups and downs and her treating me bad. Eventually I had enough and told her to contact me only if she is interested in pursuing real relationship with me. I ignored her attempts to communicate for a week after that. There was not much to ignore really as she would send texts that do not elicite responses at late night hours. Week later we met and she said she is leaving her husband right after holidays, wants to be my wife and wants to make things right this time.

 

I spent next night thinking. When we met I said that I will give us one more chance. I also asked her to think whether she wants it as I really feel I have come to an end and cant stand another dissapointment. She said that she is determined to make it work. Few days passed, we kept seeing each other but I could feel something is not right. She was more distant than usual. I asked what is wrong but she said nothing. Eventually I sat her down and tried to talk. Like many times before she gave me silent treatment. She only said that she is definitely leaving him but cant tell me when.

 

For few hours I tried to talk with her one last time. I literally begged her to talk to me and to think what is she doing to us. As she continued to be silent I said that I had enough and wish to be in complete NC so I can move on. I also said that this was last chance I was willing to give to us and that I will block her. She begged me not to end it and not to block her but whenever I asked is she ready to leave him she would stay silent. She was also very angry for me telling that I will block her. My last words to her were question "what do you want from me" to which she replied "nothing until I finish things at home". I was so angry for her turning her back on us for another time so I said "one day you will want to talk but I will behave like you are doing it now" and left. It was wrong thing to say and I regretted it instantly but I was so dissapointed and hurt.

 

Nearly three weeks have passed since then. We have been without any contact. I cant help to wonder whether I pushed too far by closing all communication lines. A part of me thinks that she might be scared to contact me after my last words. Then again, I know that she could easily find me if she wanted to do things right. I am starting to miss her and even thinking of breaking NC on my own. But then again, this would probably be mistake. While I did end this relationship, it was her actions that led to break up so I feel that she should be one initiating contact.

 

I would like to hear oppinions of others. When someone says these things that I said to her on our last meeting would you be willing to contact that person again if you see what was wrong and want to make it right? Do you think that I burned all bridges? Is there any point in contacting her or would it be better to stay silent and hope that she will contact me? Thanks.

[fixing]

Sorry man, but did she cheat on you in the past which caused your break up? She treated you badly? And now she is cheating emotionally on her husband and talking about leaving him for you? YET, she hasnt ended things at 'home' for months? My advice is:

RUN

 

RUN

 

RUN

 

I know you dont want to hear that, but you better go no contact now and heal as quick as possible, because when she gets bored (if and when she leaves her ex) SHE WILL CHEAT ON YOU and cycle and cycle and cycle