tinkerbash Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 I've never been so upset- i cried on a call at work today the poor guy just wanted to pay his card and i just blew up and couldnt stop crying, i had to apologise and run to the bathroom. Then the radio on the bus played his favourite song and i fell apart again- It's been two days and I am not coping, I ended it because he was having family problems and was not communicating well to me and in he end his ex threatned his relationship with his child. So he asked me to stay friends and i said no. He told me he will always love me and then i said goodbye. I JUST CANT LET GO ! i have thought about nothing else all day, i actually think ive been in a daze for most of it. When does it get better? I miss everything about him but i know staying no contct is for the best its just so hard Im really struggling here!
darkmoon Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 he's in a jam not of his making so he might well come back, take a sedative, hot chocolate, herbal remedy, see a doctor, i know how love hurts, and make plans, get out more
Author tinkerbash Posted January 7, 2013 Author Posted January 7, 2013 i wish i could... i really hope so the pain is like nothing i've ever felt i really can't see the other side at the moment its sooo hard and just getting through the day was a struggle
darkmoon Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 (edited) i wish i could... i really hope so the pain is like nothing i've ever felt i really can't see the other side at the moment its sooo hard and just getting through the day was a struggle i went on holiday n it was so nice, i felt happy, happy, for you now it's early days in the recovery process, it does get easier, after painful times of wishing for a cure for heart-ache, i realized sedatives were it, herbal ones from a health shop - you need quite a few - or because i'd tell an off-line freind no different, if you still feel bad, see your doctor Edited January 7, 2013 by darkmoon
Author tinkerbash Posted January 7, 2013 Author Posted January 7, 2013 i am actually going to Disneyland Paris next week. It will be good to get away from it all... looking at everything in my house reminds me of him... should i get rid of the gifts and everything?? Im really not in a vacation mood i am worried i will ruin it for the rest of my family. I cant remember what it was like to smile. I think my doctor is definately needed i have kalms herbal remedy but its not helping at all.
darkmoon Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 i am actually going to Disneyland Paris next week. It will be good to get away from it all... looking at everything in my house reminds me of him... should i get rid of the gifts and everything?? Im really not in a vacation mood i am worried i will ruin it for the rest of my family. I cant remember what it was like to smile. I think my doctor is definately needed i have kalms herbal remedy but its not helping at all. kalms are no good, superdrug do much better ones get rid of the gifts? yes, or ask a trusted friend to stash them when you least expect it, you realize that you haven't thought of him for ages, n other men start to look nice, but for now, superdrug i can't think of anything else useful
Author tinkerbash Posted January 7, 2013 Author Posted January 7, 2013 superdrug tomorrow for sure! thamks for the advice ! the gifts are now boxed and in my cupboard out of sight!!! 1
Author tinkerbash Posted January 7, 2013 Author Posted January 7, 2013 i have deleted all the messages. that was the hardest part, i took a snapshot of the one where he said he will always love me, i know its sad but it was really just so i can tell myself i wasnt making it up. Ive cried all day and havent really eaten eather! i really need a subway! or a pint or something! this is making me tired but i cant seem to get any sleep. actually walked into work today with cry marks! mortified
darkmoon Posted January 7, 2013 Posted January 7, 2013 i have deleted all the messages. that was the hardest part, i took a snapshot of the one where he said he will always love me, i know its sad but it was really just so i can tell myself i wasnt making it up. Ive cried all day and havent really eaten eather! i really need a subway! or a pint or something! this is making me tired but i cant seem to get any sleep. actually walked into work today with cry marks! mortified you need more than the two or so recommended, but superdrug herbal sedatives do have an effect, y can't u confide in your mum?
Author tinkerbash Posted January 7, 2013 Author Posted January 7, 2013 the wee one ive been working all day and have to come home and take care of her so i cant really just kick back at the pub for a pint. she comes first. makes it harder though im just trooping through the now !!! snapshot is not going anywhere i should egt a gold star for boxing up presents !! its really hard to do! and deleting numbers and i havent cracked on facebook and im on it all the time!!!! i hope i can stick it out ! darkmoon my mum is upset- she just lost her job and she didnt like him anyway so i would just get the dreaded good riddance lecture i really dont need ... 1
Author tinkerbash Posted January 7, 2013 Author Posted January 7, 2013 mine is just deactivated ... ive far too much stuff on it to delete it completely, plus im not that strong i can always peek at his page if i want too and he tends to throw himself into facebook when he doesnt have me to talk to so i cant stand his contant updates at the moment ... i keep worrying he will meet someone else its not good at all ...
portableversion Posted January 9, 2013 Posted January 9, 2013 so sorry to hear your story. it does sound odd I dont really see how an ex-could do such a thing. and from your photo i can tell you look real pretty too. Ive been going to aa and other things myself. There is a theory that experiencing pain, without meds is actually a chance to grow spiritually. Getting to what they call emotional exhaustion, or the breaking of the heart can allow a person to get closer to god. After surviving such a horrible ordeal completely sober you'll have a lot of power. i recommend going to some therapy and church everyday if you can. And cry and cry and cry somemore. Your story is odd maybe you have a chance to get back together. ill pray for you
andytenshi Posted January 10, 2013 Posted January 10, 2013 mine is just deactivated ... ive far too much stuff on it to delete it completely, plus im not that strong i can always peek at his page if i want too and he tends to throw himself into facebook when he doesnt have me to talk to so i cant stand his contant updates at the moment ... i keep worrying he will meet someone else its not good at all ... You could take him off your newsfeed so you don't get any updates from him but can still use the site otherwise. That's what I do.. the only problem is you can still visit his timeline to see what he's doing which is a strong temptation I'm failing at myself.. luckily the girl isn't very active on fb but even the slightest update sends me into an obsessive spiral of doom...
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