Its strange

[Harradin]

I'm autistic so I've kinda been emotionless and lack empathy etc, I'm not particularly that bad as I'm at university reading maths (typical considering I am autistic haha) and I have friends etc. I just find it hard sometimes to tell how people are feeling etc. I genuinely believed that love was a weak emotion and that you had to be weak minded to fall in love.

 

And yet I'm here heartbroken and trying to move on, and moving on is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Its strange how one woman can change my view on love so quickly.

[GG3]

What happened with your woman?

 

It's not weak at all.

[Harradin]

What happened with your woman?

 

It's not weak at all.

 

I know now its not weak, hence why its strange that all my views were changed because of this girl, that's what I meant .

 

Long story short, a week before the breakup, her parents told her they were getting a divorce, she was devastated so I was there for her all that week and looked after her and tried to make her happy, she told me how grateful she was and how much she loved me. I then went away for the weekend where she suddenly goes distant, then she leaves me (via email that she didn't write) for my 'friend' completely out of the blue after the weekend.

 

Where I find out that my 'friend' had been making moves on her the week when she found out her parents got divorced, and they met up during that weekend where she tells me "nothing happened", then decided she would rather be with him and left.

 

Assuming it was the divorce that messed her head and she kept finding excuses to contact me weeks after the breakup, I tried getting her back a month later only for her to lead me on (holding hands, sitting on my lap etc) and tell me she was staying with the 'friend.' Not spoken to her since then (October.) Frustrating that I still love her (somehow) but I'm trying to move on. Its been nearly 3 months NC.

Edited January 7, 2013 by Harradin