wanting more Posted January 6, 2013 Posted January 6, 2013 And I hate it. 1st time in 4 years we weren't together for his birthday. My birthday is coming up and he won't be here. I hate he's still in my mind, my thoughts. It's not missing him feelings. It's more how did I let myself fall in love with someone I had no right to love. Something reminds me of a time, place we were together. Fortunately the bad memories of the "end" for us also comes to mind and the good feelings and memories go away. what a mess I made of my life. I guess maybe because of the birthdays he's on my mind more. I do see that the NC was the best thing ever for us but it still hurts soooo much sometimes. ( sorry, feels like I'm rambling).
LadyLost Posted January 6, 2013 Posted January 6, 2013 Hello Wanting More. As your tag name suggests, remember you do want more! So much more. There must be more to relationships than having to share a man. Lucky you if he was around for your birthdays. Was he also there for holidays and Xmas and New Years? I am thinking a lot about how it is NOT OK that my MM chose to spend Xmas with his wife; chose to spend the holidays with his wife; could not be there for my birthday and the day after and the day after. All the while, living and existing with another woman. A woman he chose to marry and have a life with. His Wife! I am not sure anything makes it any easier, but just remember why you chose to get out and how you go about getting yourself more. 1
Summer Breeze Posted January 6, 2013 Posted January 6, 2013 It isn't easy but you're doing so well. Come in here to vent, rant, and rave. Cry if you want to too! It's so tough when it ends but there's a reason our exes are exes. Think of those reasons. If that doesn't work then eat chocolate. Lots of chocolate. There isn't a whole lot anyone can say but know we're here when you need some support.
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