lost87 Posted January 6, 2013 Posted January 6, 2013 Hey guys, i was going with my ex 3 years and wee splitt back in may 2012! Shes 5 years younger than me (20) and wee had been living together for 2 years. The relationship had alot of stress at times esp with her being so young dealing with the responsibility of bills etc and her reason for leaving was that she needed to live her life like a 20 year old should an the rest of her m8s lyk out partyin etc! Well to be honest it broke my heart when wee splitt as it was on good terms and i really loved her an planned to b with her but from the splitt ive found it really hard getting over her and became severley depressed and put on antidepressants, suicidle at my worst! Ive practically been housebound since! She said when wee splitt that she just needed a year or so to do her thing and she would come back and that she still loved me. I was suffering from depression for about a year before meeting her, and through the relationship but i never new what it was, i thought it was just stress. So our time together was me not at my usual self. Today she called for a few things of hers that wer still here and i asked the question have you been seeing any1 as its been wrecking me for months wondering what shes been doin an who with. She kept saying no then finally came out with yes she had, and has been seeing him for the past 5months. I was absolutly gutted an wish i hadnt asked! I got abit upset and told her to leave then i text her tonight asking why over the past load of months hav u been lying to me and getting on as if nothings happening, and she said because she had to lie because of me being depressed and she didnt want to rub salt into my wounds. I said but youve known that ive missed you so much an still love you so much an how can she just go and start sleeping with another guy a month after splitting up, knowing how unwell i had become and still remain to text, visit etc letting on that nothing was going on! She finally admitted that she was miserable being with me and sick of hearing about me being depressed which obviously i had no choice over and just needed to escape. I give her the full message saying how heartless she was and how she cud do this to me after "loving me for 3 years" its just the fact that she didnt tell me the truth at the start of the breakup and put me through hell waiting on her lyk a dick for absolutly nothing as she said when wee splitt that she just needed a year or so to party and be young and then she would be back. she says she's happy now with this new guy, he has 2 jobs, he's her age and goes to uni and has been out havin fun and social alot more than what me and her done partly due to me being unwell and the both of us in and out of jobs at the time. She says now she never wants to speak to me again, and that hurts because for some weird reason i do still love her and now i know thats her gone for good, it just scares me now that i might not meet someone i fall in love with and loves me back again. Have i done the right thing on finally questioning her on all this, as now finally after a year i know were i stand but now thats it completely finished. Can someone please shed a bit of light or give me some hope?
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