crashvector Posted January 5, 2013 Posted January 5, 2013 (edited) When i got my things from my now ex-fiance yesterday, i didn't bother to look through the box. Well, this morning, I was putting the box up the closet (dont wanna see it right now) and something fell out the bottom of it. It was my ring. Well, what would have been my ring. It is the ring I had picked out to be my wedding ring that she got for me. It was strange, seeing it on the floor didnt do much to me...but as SOON as I touched it..... I've been an absolute wreck since. All I keep thinking about was the day I put her engagement ring on her finger...the day I proposed. I had planned it for MONTHS. Hired the A Cappella group...practiced with them for weeks...etc. Waited for a sunny day, then called them and told them to be at a specific place on the levee by the river at 10am. I picked her up, we went to breakfast...the entire time, I had butterflies in my stomach. We went for a walk on the levee like we often did...when we got to the spot, the group was under the gazeebo where I told them to wait. She and I walked up and stood by the stairs while they started to sing the song I had picked out, "The Longest Time" by Billy Joel. I could tell she just thought it was a group practicing my the levee for the public or something, and I was thinking "Oh man..this is gonna be AWESOME!" When it came to the final verse, the group came down from the gazeebo, and I turned to face her.... I sang the last verse of the song to her and as I sang the last line of the song that goes "...and I intend to love you for the longest time." I got down on one knee and opened the box with her ring in it. As the group finished the song, I asked her to marry me. The look on her face was PRICELESS when i started singing and she realized what was going on. Seriously...I dont think I could EVER top that. It was absolutely PERFECT. So, here I sit, rolling this ring around in my hand...heartbroken over what SHOULD have been but will never be. Edited January 5, 2013 by crashvector
Author crashvector Posted January 5, 2013 Author Posted January 5, 2013 I know my heart is playing tricks on me...but I can NOT make it be QUIET! I keep thinking things like "If I only say THIS...she'll come back" or "If I can only make her understand...she'll fix this and we can get back together." etc My MIND knows that its over, but this tug of war between my head and my heart is killing me. I can't just walk away from a 5 year relationship and a 1 year engagement...I wanted to MARRY this woman. How am I supposed to just get over it and move on?! I know with my ex wife, I didnt WANT her back....I was heartbroken, sure..but I didnt WANT her to come back. In this case, I loved my fiance with ALL my heart..and I don't know if I can move along... I'm TRYING everything that I can think of...but none of it seems to work...
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