Navajo46 Posted January 5, 2013 Posted January 5, 2013 I cannot believe how bad my ups and downs are. I am hurting so badly. I was with girl for 6 years and she left for her married boss who says getting a divorce. I think I was in such shock over the last couple of weeks, that at first I didn't care and thought good riddance. Now it has been six weeks and boy was last night bad. I got so angry that bad thoughts were going through my head and I could barely control myself. She tried to pull the friend card on me when we broke up and I told her that it would be too hard and that I needed her and her son out of my life completely this time. She texted me a week later for my birthday and we have had no contact since. Why am I missing her soooo much? I find myself wanting to contact her just to see how she is doing. I won't do it, but it is sooo hard. I can't believe I want to after what she has done. I keep trying to fool myself into thinking I am over it, but obviously it hasn't worked. I have been barely functional... drinking all the time just so I can sleep. I can't believe I still feel like I love this girl. It's funny that you always look for meaning in everything after things like that happen. I don't think she misses me and I could never take her back after the lying and deceit... but man is it hard. A week ago I checked her facebook and she took down alot of her photos, but left up a few of ours. The one was of us on New Years a few years ago and she changed the caption to "Write an optional comment...". What the hell does that mean... was that a shot at me? The only thing that would make me more mad right now is if I thought she was trying to make me look bad after all I have done for her. I have since blocked her facebook by the way. Can't keep going through that.
crashvector Posted January 5, 2013 Posted January 5, 2013 I know its of little consolation...but I am right there with you. My fiance and I were together 5 years...gonna be married in 5 months.
Author Navajo46 Posted January 5, 2013 Author Posted January 5, 2013 I'm sorry to hear that man. My ex was supposed to move back in end of december and then I was proposing in January. The week we broke up I was looking at rings with her best friend and her husband. Stings a little more.
MyAngel Posted January 6, 2013 Posted January 6, 2013 6 weeks is still in early stages. You'll have many emotions to work through yet I am sure, especially as you said you were in shock for a few weeks. Your other emotions haven't had a chance to catch up. I hope you are able to find some relief from this misery soon.
crashvector Posted January 6, 2013 Posted January 6, 2013 I'm sorry to hear that man. My ex was supposed to move back in end of december and then I was proposing in January. The week we broke up I was looking at rings with her best friend and her husband. Stings a little more. im very sorry my man I KNOW how it stings...trust me. break up just really REALLY suck.
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