ScienceGal Posted January 5, 2013 Posted January 5, 2013 (edited) Exchanged a couple emails with him yesterday that ended in an agreement to return each others belongings. I went out with a friend for a couple hours last night and had a really nice time. Came home and went straight to bed, woke up after several hours and felt nothing but guilt for going out. Some people correlate that to "moving on", but it's not true. It's only been a couple days, and I am hurting a lot. I struggled all night and kept dreaming that I was trying to hug him and he kept rejecting me and walking away. I kept having similar dreams and was up every hour after that with stomach pains. I guess there is no question here. Just wanted to share my side for anyone that thinks their ex is doing well just because they get out to do something in public. Everyone just does what they need to do to get through. Edited January 5, 2013 by ScienceGal
HARPER100 Posted January 5, 2013 Posted January 5, 2013 It's only been a few days so it's going to hurt, especially as you made the decision to break up based on incompatibility and not feelings. In some ways I think relationships that end like this can be worse on the person who makes the decision to leave - you have to deal with the pain of not being some one you care about and at the same time know you could probably change all this with one phone call. If you know you ended it for the right reasons you shouldn't feel guilty. All you can do is limit contact while you sort out any remaining domestic issues and after that avoid all contact while you both move on. If you continue to wake up try reading or watching tv until you fall asleep, anything that will keep your mind on something else.
Author ScienceGal Posted January 5, 2013 Author Posted January 5, 2013 Thanks, Harper. Actually he was the one to end it. I immediately accepted, gave him a hug and left. We weren't seeing eye to eye and and we're both totally burnt out right now. It could've went differently but it didn't. He is supposed to be letting me know what day he wants to stop by for his things, instead I just got an email of a movie photo and he wrote "I will always love and miss you". I don't know what the purpose of it is, but I am not wallowing today! I just drank some seriously strong coffee. Going to head to the gym and then to a friend's house. I'll be home alone tonight and it's going to be tough... I'll probably be back on here.
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