movingforward2013 Posted January 5, 2013 Posted January 5, 2013 Well, he does normally asking about his son but yesterday he asked how I was doing via text then asked if I was still talking to the guy I told him about. Later that evening, we had a few more phone chats and my son and I went on face time so he can video chat. The phone chats were full of teasing and joking and we ended the conversation sweetly, with a good night. I was thinking I didn't want him back before unless he came begging but after rehashing the situation over and over in my head, I did/do have a role to play in our demise. Not excusing him for cheating on me and second guessing us getting married a week before wedding. He has a lot of making up to do for that but I do recognize that I was pushing him away emotionally because I was upset with all the changes going on. No wonder why he was second guessing everything. I will be using this like a journal so I don't have to continue making new posts. Anyone can feel free to reply.
Author movingforward2013 Posted January 7, 2013 Author Posted January 7, 2013 Ex keeps contacting me. We had a long discussion on Saturday night which started (by him) with how are you and ended with us rehashing situation. He swears up and down he didn't want to end our relationship, he just wanted a break. My response, you don't ask for one a week before you are about to be married and not because you met someone two weeks prior. He then said he only wanted me or her and doesn't want to date anyone else. Again, I don't get how this man is so blinded to think he could place his 4 weeks with her over our 5 years, son and family. Even married men who cheat choose the wife over the girlfriend, unless they were looking for a way out. I don't know why I love him. Thinking about it over again, it hurts. I remember two days after we broke up, we were arguing about the break up with me begging him to reconsider for our family. He got upset, told me that I wasn't a bad person he just needs time to think and shut his phone off all night. Now I am figuring, he was with her and slept with her that night. It makes me angry. If you are going to f*ck her, fine but I have your son. Don't turn off your f*cking phone. I thought I was finally in the acceptance stage of this all but my anger has resurfaced. I guess it is because he has been contacting me daily but has yet to start begging. He does seem like he is trying to regain my favor, either to eventually ask for another chance successfully or in hope I go easy on him in child support court. Does he not understand that I want to give this another shot now. Even with all the bull ***** he did. We have a f*cking family and I took those vows seriously. It is probably a stupid decision to jump back in now but him trying to keep himself present in my life daily without being upfront with the reason why is pissing me off. ****** My friend J will be here next week. He has been helping me get through this, listening to me the entire time from the crying to the anger. He is an angel, I don't know anyone else who would selflessly subject themselves to hours of listening to someone rant about their break up. We have grown close emotionally and I can not wait to spend time with him in the Big Apple.
BOSSHOGG5 Posted January 8, 2013 Posted January 8, 2013 Just a thought. Somebody has to step forward in this situation. My other thought both of you need to get your third parties out of the way first. I have done the whole listening to the woman thing thru all of her woes to my advantage. Be careful!!!!!
Lone Posted January 10, 2013 Posted January 10, 2013 The most important thing is to not let the relationship turn bitter for the childs sake. End of story.
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