I Screwed Up

[dav6992]

Saw Ex Girlfriend a week ago at a mutual friend's party. Broke up 6 months ago. I live three hours away now and we had been texting each other daily for the last 2 months. I made it a point not to show much of my feelings. However I kept things light, without revealing much. Always responding to her texts hardly ever initiating. She had told me over this span a number of times she misses me, always loved me/always will, wish it could have worked out, looking forward to seeing me at this party, hinted around if I wanted to see her more than just casual basis etc. This party started coming up and I found myself looking forward to seeing her. Maybe even rekindling something. When the day came (12/22) she was late and only stayed a couple hours. We had a pleasant time, but I got the feeling something was up. She claimed her daughter was sick and had to get back. That never would have been a reason for her not to invite me back or meet up again while I was in town. Anyways, I had a wtf moment and called her after she left. She kinda blew me off and I could tell she wasnt' telling the truth about her daughter. I blew my stack and got pissed. She doesn't live very far from my friend's place so I had to know if she was lying to me. Did the idiotic thing and drove by and of course no one home. I blew up her phone with texts calling her a liar and everything else a guy whose feelings suddenly erupted after being dormant for 6 months. We've broken up and got back many times over 4 years and each time she can't be alone. She immediately latches on to someone she meets and has promise. I calmed down a bit the next morning and sent her multiple texts during the day, although still revealing my ass that I've tried really hard trying to get over her and when my feelings surface it's a ****storm. She knows I'm alone over the holidays this year and it's tough. I've done really well at keeping my cool and being somewhat aloof the last six months... now my dignity as well as pride is lost with that 24 hour blow up. I realize that she's single and can do what she wants. It just really pissed me off that I knew she was lying and she may be moving on with someone else. Jealousy is truly the green eyed monster. Any advice on how to regain dignity in her eyes?

[TerpVet87]

Just apologize and take responsibility for your actions. Tell her the truth, you still have feelings for her and got jealous. Then wait for her to contact you. At that point the ball is in her court.