Just smile Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 When does this disgusting feeling end? I cannot listen to ANY music, all reminds me of him and then I cry. He took off for Florida for seven days to supposedly be with his family. Not a care for me at all. I wasn't invited ever.but he took off to get away from me. He hasn't imitated any contact at all.isuspect he will resurface when he's home and lonely, now he is surrounded with his kids and family do he's happy. I want the ball in my court so bad, to ignore him. Although I know this relationship will never ever work, he was the love of my life. Never felt such passionate love ever. The toxicity of the rrelationship is what killed it. He is such a narssicitic commitment phobe with a personality disorder, and every couple months or weeks his behavior becomes odd and he does things like this. He has told everyone I'm a stalker, and need help , and I'm sick. Although he leaves out the part of him calling me to come over for sex. I'm crushed. Very depressed. Haven't eaten really in well over a week, and I look like ****. Dammit, this man is ten years my senior.,bald, overweight and has selfs stem issues, and I'm the one who is feeling insecure and alone, and like I will never ever find love Like this again.
TaraMaiden Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 Good post. Tell you what, re-read it, but this time as if the poster was a complete and total stranger to you, seeking your input. What would you tell her....? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Exactly.
Author Just smile Posted December 30, 2012 Author Posted December 30, 2012 Taramaiden, I miss your responses always so good. Lol! Thank you. I know I'm behaving silly, all my friends wanna shake me. Why do I feel this way? I have always been a a stronger person than this, I was able to walk out of a abusive marriage of 17 years with four kids In tow, and never shed a tear for him, but this **** face I do? Did I mention he had a limp dick?
TaraMaiden Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 Wow, pushes all the buttons - be still my beating heart, what a catch! Go on, what are his negative traits? I can't wait.....!
youngnlove89 Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 When does this disgusting feeling end? I cannot listen to ANY music, all reminds me of him and then I cry. He took off for Florida for seven days to supposedly be with his family. Not a care for me at all. I wasn't invited ever.but he took off to get away from me. He hasn't imitated any contact at all.isuspect he will resurface when he's home and lonely, now he is surrounded with his kids and family do he's happy. I want the ball in my court so bad, to ignore him. Although I know this relationship will never ever work, he was the love of my life. Never felt such passionate love ever. The toxicity of the rrelationship is what killed it. He is such a narssicitic commitment phobe with a personality disorder, and every couple months or weeks his behavior becomes odd and he does things like this. He has told everyone I'm a stalker, and need help , and I'm sick. Although he leaves out the part of him calling me to come over for sex. I'm crushed. Very depressed. Haven't eaten really in well over a week, and I look like ****. Dammit, this man is ten years my senior.,bald, overweight and has selfs stem issues, and I'm the one who is feeling insecure and alone, and like I will never ever find love Like this again. Aww sweetie, I know how you feel. It's hard, BUT everyday gets easier!! It's unnoticeable at first, but when a couple weeks pass, you start to realize it's getting better. My ex was a commitment phobe also, and although he didn't exploit me to his friends like he did you calling you a "stalker" and such, he did say some pretty nasty things to me. He called me a "disgusting pig" once and told me I'm only "95% the one" oh, and this was my favorite, "I treated all my girlfriends in the past better than you" It's emotionally depleting to find out what it's like to love someone and then find out you aren't enough. But this isn't about US, it's about THEM. Their choice to leave us doesn't mean we aren't loveable or wanted. We just fell in love with the wrong person. Keep your head up and be determined to stay NC because I swear, you will thank yourself later! We both deserve better! 1
Author Just smile Posted December 30, 2012 Author Posted December 30, 2012 Lmao, we'll maybe this will be therapeutic to me All negative traits of my ex: Low testostorne. Limp dick Low sex drive due to above Strange fetishes of wanting to be peed on ( yea strange) I know Porn love despite his inability to screw me,,he would rather jerkoff than perform Kept an arsenal of sex toys for back up. Wack job. Kept in close contact with his fat old ugly transvesitie looking ex girlfriend on back burner and when I would react he would call me jealous and insecure. Big show off Would buy women drinks in bars Had a wandering eye. But would deny it and claim I'm once again jealous and insecure. And crazy On a ****load of meds just to get thru the day and Xanax to sleep Kids hated my guts and they were both horribly spoiled 23 and 17 BRATS Ex wife was a cold hearted greedy thorn in my side who he also kept in his back pocket. He was a pussy never standing up for me Didn't want to be around my kids...ever Never would come to my home I always had to go to his Selfish Self centered Cold Manipulating Condescending and calculating Indifferent Evasive Cunning Devious I believe he got off on making me jealous and now devaluing me and discarding. Compartmentalize the entire relationship only taking me off the shelf when bored, lonely or needed. Whew this is therapeutic and quite frankly disturbing. Why the **** am I crying over this piece of ****.??!! Why do I care what he is saying to people about me ? I gave this man my heart I was good to him, I loved him unconditionally and he STILL was incapable of givng me what I needed and all I needed was respect love and attention. After four long years of up and down I have nothing to show for it except a few lines in my forehead from stress, and maybe a few beautiful pieces of Jewerly. Big deal. The man brought me more grief than love. I was the BEST thing that had ever happened to him, he claims I was the most beautiful woman he had ever had . I'm sure when the fog of his ****ed up brain comes down again, he will be missing me terribly and I will enviably receive a call. Or text or email from some other number. I hope and pray that by then I will be on the road to recovery once and for all from this man,who I have no future with.. The pain is raw. Still there. Even knowing what I know, and I'm a smart woman believe me. And this man broke my spirit. Is just very heartbreaking, I lay post on my sofa with horrible inability to even move.. Thank you for allowing me to share ..
TaraMaiden Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 OH. MY. GOD. Girl, get real. look at him. no, really - I mean - look at him.. Are you kidding me?? jeesh. Get off that couch and go up to some complete random stranger - he will probably be a million times better than this 'catch'...! Woah.. you know, normally I try to 'knock' some sense into peeps, but this?? I don't need to say anything really, do I? I notice you never mentioned his constipation or piles. Is that for a later post?? 1
Mcnulty Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 Thanks for that list, it's made me feel a ton better about myself, I'm the antithesis of this guy and I aint got any ladies pining after me...I see what i'm doing wrong now!Ha!(joking). He sounds like my sister's hubby to a tee...she's just chucked him..if she can do it, you can, believe me. 1
aliceb1987 Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 Lmao, we'll maybe this will be therapeutic to me Limp dick Strange fetishes of wanting to be peed on ( yea strange) I know Porn love despite his inability to screw me,,he would rather jerkoff than perform On a ****load of meds just to get thru the day Haha! all the above sounds very familiar...Some people are just too kinky and sexually open,and when they keep going on about fetishes can be quite a turn off.My short term ex repeatedly badgered me about threesomes (including asking if id like one with one of my friends!) fetishes and anal sex even though i said i didnt like those things.During sex he provided a constant running commentry of instructions about what i should do (even though he was the one who couldn't perform properly!) Wierdo.
Author Just smile Posted December 30, 2012 Author Posted December 30, 2012 Aww sweetie, I know how you feel. It's hard, BUT everyday gets easier!! It's unnoticeable at first, but when a couple weeks pass, you start to realize it's getting better. My ex was a commitment phobe also, and although he didn't exploit me to his friends like he did you calling you a "stalker" and such, he did say some pretty nasty things to me. He called me a "disgusting pig" once and told me I'm only "95% the one" oh, and this was my favorite, "I treated all my girlfriends in the past better than you" It's emotionally depleting to find out what it's like to love someone and then find out you aren't enough. But this isn't about US, it's about THEM. Their choice to leave us doesn't mean we aren't loveable or wanted. We just fell in love with the wrong person. Keep your head up and be determined to stay NC because I swear, you will thank yourself later! We both deserve better
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