todreaminblue Posted December 30, 2012 Posted December 30, 2012 My no contact thread is little different...because i am a little different...but i have to go no contact....I haven't even dated this guy....my no contact thread isnt a bag out...he is a wonderful person.....all it is is he doesnt feel for me like i feel for him..his heart is taken....it all started today a shortbread house he made broke me.......he made it for someone and that someone isnt me...i wish it was ...it was a cool house...and i am a shortbread fan......its a long story not going to bore you ....this is my first day of no contact.,,,,,i am struggling to delete his number, i will struggle if people mention his name around me.... he doesnt answer my texts i have sent, so it will be easier not to text him when i delete his number..... my grieving is not knowing him like i wanted to get to know him or what could have been i f he had felt the same way....i dont often feel anything for men.other than friendship..............when i have felt strongly enough i have had that chance of seeing what is possible.....this time i dont..and i wish him happiness but for me i cant watch him have it....is that selfish?...... i cant explain why, or do i understand why he has had this effect on me...but i do feel selfish...he is a great guy i have fallen for(my track history isnt good so i am glad that i feel for a genuine guy, thats my positive)....i thought i could just have him as a friend and i cant....it hurts too much and at the moment this is hard to accept.....so i am going the no contact route...even though it feels like a meat grinder that makes me feel nauseous....wish me luck....ill give some luck back to whoever follows this no contact route...its hard.....deb
Author todreaminblue Posted December 31, 2012 Author Posted December 31, 2012 second day....stressed out so much bought on my period early had insomnia last night so went walking at midnight scared the crap out of my family......felt better and was able to sleep after walking for an hour..cannot delete his number tried...deb
Cutiepie1976 Posted December 31, 2012 Posted December 31, 2012 Sorry to hear it wasn't mutual. It's tough. Not at all selfish that you can't stick around to see him happy. Maybe add deleting his number to your to-do list for tomorrow. Stay strong! (((HUGS))) 1
sangel07 Posted December 31, 2012 Posted December 31, 2012 I can partially relate, since I haven't really had any relationship with this guy either (although we dated a bit and it was never really just friendship), anyway it was enough for me to completely fall for him and now I had to go NC. So I feel for you - it can hurt as hell even if it wasn't an actual breakup. Anyway I really think your choice was good; you can't be friends with someone you have such strong feelings for. Maybe in the future, when you'll have a new love interest and you'll be able to really see him as just a friend. In my case, I often wonder if I'll ever be able to... but who knows, and in the meantime we only have NC. Let's keep it up! (btw, I haven't been able to delete his number either)
Anela Posted January 9, 2013 Posted January 9, 2013 Deb, could you turn on your PM's, please? Thank you.
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