My Christmas Gift to Myself

[Ajvd1]

I had been having an emotional and physical affair for with mm for almost 9 months. We talked so much that I had a few 300 dollar cell bills. Not only was I the ow, I have a 12 year relationship and 2 children myself. My mm lied to me relentlessly about his life and then would eventually change his tune and tell me the truth. Such as the fact that he and his wife were expecting. I don't know how I got so caught up in this. He asked me a few weeks before xmas to leave with him xmas night for a few days. It would have been the first time we spent more than a few hours together. Not to say I didnt consider it but the fact that he would leave his pregnant wife on xmas to be with me...and expecting me to leave my 2 children during the most important time of the year finally made me see the light. This thing we were doing was insane. He didn't intend to change anything for me. Just steal moments of my life away. The guilt of hurting both our families if caught would have destroyed everyone. Not worth it!!!! I ended it Christmas day. Got a new phone number and I feel like me again!!! BEST PRESENT EVER!!! I love my bf and children's father more than life a fact that I hide from myself for 9 long months and I will never do anything to ruin that ever again. I feel great. If you just focus on the great things that can come NC can be amazing. I made a huge mistake. I feel guilty and horrible about it but knowing that I broke the cycle gives me hope. Hope for true happiness and a future that is not masked with lies and deceit. Affairs can be thrilling at first but the aftermath they could create is no where near worth the risk. I am glad I finally woke up!!!