Broke up with gf before x mass, and i want her back.

[guywithapillowfriend]

Greetings! My name is Guy with a pillow friend. Well i wanted some how how to deal with brake up or what should i do next?

 

well heads up every one my grammar is not perfect but i did what i could.

 

Here we goo...

 

So everything started about 3 month ago when i started dating this girl. Everything went really well and we both were happy. We both decided that we should have a good communication between us, and we both agreed that we will talk our problems out like adults. I felt really happy with this girl and she was the girl that i hang picked rose for because i felt that she is the girl i always looked for, and she took it she was really happy, and she said no one ever give her handpicked flowers 1st, so things went good from that time and she said she would not want anyone else as much she wants me. well any way so time was getting close to xmas and so her dad invited me to xmas that t was out the town and he wanted me to meet more of her family (Ohh and her mom and dad liked me a lot well her whole family liked me) well any way the event is on 29th this month, and i was all exited for and getting prepared for. One of other things my gf(ex) she and her family went to the beach for like few days and have a family time. And i told her let me know how things go with you and what you are up to ( she said ok because beach had bad phone service) well 1st day at the beach we talked on and off, and next days she completely ignored me . I asked her how she was doing and like 8 hours or so later i get a reply saying "Alright. We need to meet up centurally and talk when I get home, and before homeboy Christmas." I asked her what is going to be about, and she told me she does not want talk over phone, and i then said "well i hope it’s not what I’m thinking about" and then she said "We will discuss it when I get home." I told her ok and then that's how that night went off. next day we didn't talk it was like hello how are you type of thing convo that lasted 30 sec. so on 3rd day i asked her when does she wants to meet up and she said "Ilk be back Monday evening, and xmas party is the 29th so we need to make it happen before then. Then i said can i ask you a question, she said yes and i asked her if the talk is going to be about the brake up then she said "Well I didn't want to discuss it over Phone but I'm not going to lie to you. That's what I want to talk about" then i told her "can you tell me why? i mean its kind if ****ty time righ now, and what about the whole communication thing? i thought we are doing well." and then she replayed "I'm just not in a place where I want a relationship I'm in a place where I need to focus on school and myself and school. We can still be friends, if you want. If not I understand." I told her i understand and i told her how much i liked her and how happy we were and how we were getting along. she told me "I can't promise that we will get back together I really just need to do me right now and that means being single and figuring things out for myself which may or may not include you" it was also like few days before xmas i told her its ****y time to start and end year like this. She said "It is I'm just over it. I'm sorry." I asked her what i did wrong she said i didn’t do anything wrong i was to clingy and she cant handle that( i don't denie this i mean i think i did mess it up at this part but like i told her we need to talk over things we don’t enjoy) I told her she should give it more time and think about it, because we both will work on our problems and talk things over.( i also told her i got ger a xmas gift) and she replied "I don't want to think about it my minds been made up sense yesterday, I just don't feel what I thought I did and that is not fair to you. And I don't want whatever it is. I told you how I felt about that. I'm done this this conversation I'm going to bed." Day after she send me a text saying "I just want to let you I am truly grateful for the support from you in the last two months if I haven't told you that." I replied to her have a good xmas and no problem.

 

I do admin i was a bit clingy, but what got me is it took her like a day to decide that we are over. I felt like **** because all of things i did for her and i never told her i love her because it was a bit early, but it was getting to the point i was going to say it, and like now i`m doing all right but i miss her a lot and i have not talk to her in 4 days, and following no contact rule. I dont know what to do should i just wait like few weeks and see what happens? I mean i know what i did wrong and i easily can be less clingy and i just don’t understand, because like in her last relationship guy always ignored her and never spend any time with her and treated her like ****. I make sure that i spend time with her and show her how beautiful and awesome she is, but then i get dumped and i don’t know what to do..

 

Please some who read this long boring post can help me? Any advice any one can give.