na49 Posted December 24, 2012 Posted December 24, 2012 I hate this, why do I think about someone I dislike so much? Spending tomorrow with family, and eating some delicious food should help, I also think I'm finally ready to block her number and regain some sanity. (lol) Merry Christmas everyone.
LostOne1 Posted December 24, 2012 Posted December 24, 2012 I hate this, why do I think about someone I dislike so much? Spending tomorrow with family, and eating some delicious food should help, I also think I'm finally ready to block her number and regain some sanity. (lol) Merry Christmas everyone. You really need to distract yourself. I've been volunteering all week and meeting new people. Not looking to date, but meeting new people is awesome. You forget your pain and your past. You just look at new people, new friends and a new life. That's how I am beating the thought of my ex. I just think of my future now and I know it isn't with her. I know right now the future is with me and myself pushing high. I wouldn't be surprised if when school starts at some point we crash into each other even once. But I'm ready for it, because I no longer have a need for her now. I just have a need for a great future and I can get that without her. She left me and didn't see a future with me anymore. So I am doing just the same now as well seeing a future without her. And I am finally okay with it now. I don't feel the pain like I used too, but sure I do miss the good moments. But at the end of the day... she made the decision not me. She can live with her happy or sad. I know I wanna live happy and I'm okay if someone wants to walk out on me. Because I realized I'm too good to beg. If someone wants to walk out, please be my guest I'd hold the door for the girl anytime. I just realized I'm a lot stronger than I thought I was... funny because my ex used to say that too. I never believed it, but I see it in me now. 1
Author na49 Posted December 24, 2012 Author Posted December 24, 2012 Just what I needed to hear. Thanks for that. You're right too, anyone who doesn't want me in their life shouldn't have me in their life. She dumped me, she wanted me gone. So I'm giving her what she wanted. Friend zone bread crumbs have caused me setbacks but her number will be blocked soon and what a relief that will be. I plan on joining some clubs once school starts up again. I was way too dependent on my ex last semester so a lot of my friends at college are mutual friends of hers. Not what I want at all, so I hope to meet some new people and turn her into a complete stranger. It's funny, I thought I learned a lot when I was actually with my ex, but I'm finding that I'm learning more now without her. Learning a lot about self respect during this whole process lol.
veggirl Posted December 24, 2012 Posted December 24, 2012 Merry Christmas You are still in the process of breaking the habit of having her around, having her available to talk and all that. Don't worry about it, as you've seen it gets easier and easier as you go along, this'll eventually pass too and you'll find you don't think about her really at all and when you do think of her, it'll have no effect on you.
cavalier99 Posted December 24, 2012 Posted December 24, 2012 Merry Christmas You are still in the process of breaking the habit of having her around, having her available to talk and all that. Don't worry about it, as you've seen it gets easier and easier as you go along, this'll eventually pass too and you'll find you don't think about her really at all and when you do think of her, it'll have no effect on you. Well i agree. NC and time and living our lives. Nothing more nothing less helps. We are all spinning our wheels with all this recover stuff. Do this or that, stay busy, build a sand castle, play with your self more ect. It will happen anyway. We just need to live our lives and get on with it!
Simon Phoenix Posted December 24, 2012 Posted December 24, 2012 It's normal, I wouldn't worry too much about it. I had a dream about my ex last night and found her in my thoughts this morning. Then I went skiing and she totally disappeared. Thoughts come and go, deal with them when they do.
Author na49 Posted December 25, 2012 Author Posted December 25, 2012 It sucks, spending time with family is making me wish she was here. I know it's over and everything, just that thought still gets to me. The thought that she's never going to be here to spend time with me and my family again. Oh well, just gotta keep going. Nothing I do can bring her back, and even if I could, would I really want her back?
Inviv_girl Posted December 25, 2012 Posted December 25, 2012 Last year was the happiest christmas in my life with him, now Im all alone and crying! life throw me a big time crash!
suladas Posted December 25, 2012 Posted December 25, 2012 I thought christmas would be bad but it really hasn't been. Going to another christmas party tonight and another boxing day, and the last few days i've barely even thought about her at all. I thought about her last night a bit, but nothing to much. It's more of thinking it's her loose that she ended it. It took me a long time to realize it but getting to the point when you can realize and believe you'll find someone else as good or better is a good thing. Up until the last communication a few weeks ago I was going to wish her merry christmas, but won't now. If the very rare chance she does, I will respond but otherwise not a chance.
Author na49 Posted December 25, 2012 Author Posted December 25, 2012 Not wishing my ex anything. Not expecting anything either, I'd rather not get anything from her. It only makes me think of her which is NOT what I want to do.
Author na49 Posted December 25, 2012 Author Posted December 25, 2012 WELP. She called me earlier, I must've been busy so I didn't hear my phone. A missed call with no voice mail. I'm surprised she'd bother me on Christmas Eve. Whatever.. No questions, no analyzing anything or looking for meaning, she wants friendship, she's feeling guilty, she doesn't like the fact that I don't like her. Blah blah blah.
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