dreamingoftigers Posted December 22, 2012 Posted December 22, 2012 Hi everybody.... The only reason I put the (for now) into my title is because I am cautious about being too optimistic about the state of my marriage. That's when things can go awry LOL. To quote an ex-friend 'I know me and my husband will be together forever. I have a great marriage.' (Of course she decided to tell me this as I was in her place in tears over my own marriage at the time. She was a pretty insensitive person). That same ex-friend went on to have six flings and two full-on affairs in the next year, then left her husband for a boyfriend, then left the boyfriend for his best friend. So being too arrogant about one's marriage is something I am hesitant to do. However, I am quite glad at the state of H and my marriage. He is volunteering and going to school. I am in school as well. Our little daughter is very happy. She absolutely loves her Dad and he is an excellent and involved father. The addictions etc. were horrific to deal with and I am glad to see fewer and fewer traces of that in our lives. I carry a great deal of resent now because of the myriads of events that happened over the course of three years. We're getting to the point where we can start really dealing with that. I honestly needed a break from beating it all to death. My nerves had been so bad for so long. Now I am away from my family in a different province until the 12th of January. I will be missing Christmas, but we are going to keep the tree up until I get home and do Christmas then. I kindof hate Christmas (childhood and marital memories that sucked) and my husband was raised Jehovah's Witness so it isn't a big deal to him. Our daughter though is 3 and is excited, so we will be doing the whole tree/presents etc etc with her. Since I have been away and driving, I have been going through so many of the memories we had when we were younger and first together on the road. I've been missing him and realizing exactly what he brings to the "party." A lot of that got clouded over during the last few years. But I really am glad that we are working through this and living with him has gone from an F- to a B in the last year. I am actually looking forward to going home and having "Christmas." I am glad I stayed. 1
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