I'm never letting anyone disrespect me like that AGAIN

[NoLeafClover]

Here I am my second post.

 

Broke up on the Dec. 3, 2012; the night that I went from being a 26 yr old man turned into a child (I'm not afraid to say it). It's like as soon as my first tear dropped she turned her back on me. Her yelling "Go HOME" on her driveway outside my car and "IM DONE, I SAID GOOOOO HOOOMEEE" trying to make a scene as I am begging her to stop and calm herself down will never get out of my heard. I felt soooo disrespected.

 

I left her parents house shortly after cause I couldn't take it then she called me in less then a minute to talk and explain herself historically. Really?

 

"Can't you talk to me like a normal person? So what that I'm crying. My feelings are hurt and it came out of nowhere and I am already having family issues that I'm dealing with."

 

I have only been with her for 5 1/2 months but I don't understand how I'm still thinking about her. Is it just because of Rejection or perhaps the way things ended and it wasn't on my terms?

 

I tried so hard to look pass the constant pointless lies, to hold myself back from bring things up that bothered me and avoid fighting. I tried so hard to not flip out or get angry about her actions.. though failed many times.

 

How can it be after being together for such a short time one can fall for a compulsive lair this hard?

 

I always felt like I was constantly being talked down from her obese sister and best friend..picking on my race and how non-native speakers are so and so and stereotypical cultural differences that they had heard of. I am Eastern European..how can you stereotype on something your an-sisters came from? WTF

 

I remember one time a conversation about running to Walmart blew up from her (what my friends call) white trashy parents about how "walmart is evil". Why don't you both (her parents) get a job instead. Stop judging others, you have too much free time on your hands. I know the same negative ways you talk about others when I am around, you talk about me when I'm not there. Stop getting into your daughter's life. She is 30 years old and not a child. Stop getting into our relationship.

 

I felt constant pressure from her parents like they had traveled the world and knew so much about life when in reality they had not gone any further than 4 hours away "UP NORTH." and a trip to Vegas.

 

I took all this crap and I still can't believe how I let myself come down so low to where I let her walk all over me and I'd always end up taking her back after lying over and over again. What an idiot I was.

 

 

I get so pissed when I think about some things. "Talking about Cultural Differences? How about your standards? You would drive 1 hr away at this guys home town after calling ahead and booking a room at motel 6 ..so you could bone some guy you met online. At the same time you were sexting another dude you met 5 years ago in college. None of your ex's told you they loved you and the last one married your best friend and had 2 kids with her while you were still with him."

 

Why is my mind playing games with me? I should have been the one to break it off first. Now I have constant thoughts of what it could have been and what I could of changed. F** OFF my mind.

 

I haven't texted or called since Wed, 12 Dec. and I promised myself I will never let anyone EVER disrespect me like that AGAIN. I call and you text back with "I can't talk right now, im not ready" but you CALL first thing in the next morning on your way to work?

 

F** U.... I deserve more than that. I am no angel I am fully aware of that and frankly I am not looking for your Love. I don't want something you shared with other guys then say you felt even better with me; but I deserve RESPECT. You showed your true colors and became nothing but a selfish piece....

 

I regret sleeping endless summer nights in my boat with you, teaching you how to ride on my motorcycle and even letting you sleep over months at a time at my house. I regret a lot but most importantly I regret texting you when you shut your door at me and ended this relationship in the heat of the moment with your b*** attitude...when I needed you the most; coping with my mother's cancer. How selfish of you? Was I that much of an inconvenience that you were hurting so bad... like I wasn't fixing the blanket and covering you right in the middle of the night? Was there something else you needed me to do miss perfect?

 

Was it worth it? Now what are you going to do? Go on dating websites again trying to find another guy...it's not like it didn't backfire before and they'd leave you after having sex with you on the first night.

 

I wish I could give you the credits you deserve, but your actions (that I looked pass many time) have made me question your credibility. Truth is You NEVER Loved Me. You can't say "I love you but I can't do this" I am not two years old. You did this because you're used to doing it. Like someone said, You're a Pro from previous experiences. You roam from one guy's house to the other because that's what you're good at. You couldn't stand the fact I'd walk out on you every time I'd catch you in a lie. Then you'd come back crying and I'd feel bad and take you back...because perhaps...I truly did love you, and wanted things to work out. Even-though lying to me is no different then cheating I looked pass certain things.

 

So here is to you my happy ex girlfriend(although I know deep inside you're still thinking of me)...I want to say thank you, for being the one to take it a step further by showing your true colors and allowing me to see better the light at the end of the tunnel.

 

I just wish I had a chance to tell you in person, that in no time I will look back and probably laugh at how stupid I was hanging up on you when you were stabbing my heart with the big smile on your face.

 

Ohh and the part where I said I will not talk to you ever again, I mean it with all my heart.

 

It's part of my "Cultural differences" ..I AM A MAN OF MY WORD

[Samilia]

Bah don't worry. I'm from Europe myself with a thick accent and I don't take sh*t from people who have a problem with it. Just sweep it under the rug, it happens, we all have been through an humiliation or two. I know I have, I don't let it stop me, I'm back in school and scored a 10/10 at my Aq test.

 

Judging by the way you talk about her and her family, I wouldn't try and mend the relationship. Just not working.

 

I don't know if it's a cultural difference, there are @sshholes all over the world.

[Sugarkane]

What are the cultural differences? Sounds like the real problem is she is a liar and had no morals. Unfortunately there's people like that everywhere.