omorfos Posted December 21, 2012 Posted December 21, 2012 Hi to everyone on here. il make this story kinda short. I met this girl 3,5 years ago, we dated for 2 years on off long distance...it was unreal.amazing{iv previously had a relationship that lasted 5 years.} we clicked the first time we met. we broke up like 1 year and 8 months ago.i wasnt there for her when she needed me...as she is the past year+ for me...... it didnt bother me in the start, we remained really good friends and talked alot about our boyfriends girlfriends our life ect ect.... WHAT a terrible lie i told myself that i could be friends with her......perhaps subconsiously i was a friend with her cause i didnt want to face reality that we broke up.. she has made me realize and told me that she cannot make me happy and i have to find someone else....iv done everything that i have never done before for someone..in this relationship.....i sent her flowers...wrote her a letter...went to get hypnotized to erase her memory{she doesnt know this of course]...listened to all her troubles when she needed me...i have stopped talking to her to get over her....threw everything i had that reminds me of her...... this is like a bad nightmare because everything was so pure..i dont know whats going on really....we talk a bit...every now and then i keep the con versations short and simple...... the thing is that i think of her alot and i mean a lot....sometimes i can cry easily and feel very sad just by looking at photos of her on my pc {she sent me her cv so i can perhaps help her out and find her a job] hence the photo. even ...when i have sex with a nother girl i think of her and end up ****ing it all for me and the girl. i go out... i have hobbies... i do bodybuilding makes me feel good..been doing it for 3 years i use steroids to make mne feel and look better...the thing is that no matter what i do i end up thinking about her and its destroying my life. seriously im only 24..the thing is i know its true love cause i would still be with her even if she was fat,+ i just want her to be well and happy in her life, thats whats made me give her space and not bug her around and make her unhappy just breaks my soul that i lost her and will never be with her again..knowing there are soo many girls around, still doesnt make me feel good. i have a great family very supportive, thank god i am somewhat comfortable economically and i look good but i feel very lonely without her and nothing matters any more....i havent talked about this with them cause i dont feel comfortable and i wont. i know all the right answers i think..go out..meet new people....throw stuff away that remind you of her....be active..think positive...but i just cant forget about her...all i want is peaced in my soul and heart. im really confused. sometimes i tnhink about killing myself but then think about the people that love me. i just cant love anyone until this **** goes away..i know time heals all...well when?
Author omorfos Posted December 21, 2012 Author Posted December 21, 2012 can anyone relate to this? if so, any pointers??? comments ideas????
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