Lost her because of myself..

[harhar]

Long story short... I entered university In the fall and I met those girl 4 doors down from me on residence. We had the world in common, she loved mh personality, and the same taste of music. Show referred to me as her dream guy. Going Into university I joined a fraternity and promised that I would I always make time for her and be there for her. She was absolutely infatuated by me and later confessed that she was in love me, as she woke up me up in her dorm room and told me. She had just got out of a relationship with her ex and met me, and I had a brutal relationship before I met her. The fraternity strained our relationship. We never had a label to our relationship and it didn't matter to me until I started getting jealous... after three Months I asked her to be my girlfriend by the river at night and she said to me that she couldn't because of school, and that she felt like she didn't know me anymore after always being with The fraternity. Deep down inside I know for a fact that she was in love with me, and still wanted me in her life and to be with her... In four months she broke up with me three times, trust issues due to text messages, her frustrations with the fraternity and The last one was because she was fed up because I couldn't give her her space after we fought for the lost time after I asked for a break... I followed her down the hallway trying to talk to her twice and gave her back her stuff in anger after she called me crazy for trying to speak my mind omg our situation... that's when I drove home for four days to get away and she started missing me but kept communication and called her to speak. She ridiculed me, hung up the phone mid conversation, and started telling me she was busy to speak to me when she was still at The university. I drove back to see her before she went home for the week before our finals. I drove many hours to see her and I got a 10 minute conversation.. She was full of interbank resentment and told me that we were never getting back together and I followed her to her door as she locked herself in it. I told her that I loved her and all I wanted to do was talk. I never got to talk to her without her threatening to call campus security or threatening to get a restraining order... Lmao. She went back home and I was devastated and depressed for a full week, and I still am. When she came back her intentions were to ignore me, check on my mental health and wish me a happy birthday. I couldnt concentrate during my finals and couldn't write them without getting them deferred because I was such in a bad state

I told her I would drop the fraternity before and when I finisned pledging for them she was happy. Now shes cold and she's been studying without a single thought of me... she doesn't care about me anymore and does a good job at showing me. She straight up told me after I asked to talk to her in private in a Friends room, that our relationship was a fling, that I was a drama queen for leaving and talking to the floor about us. She said she was interested in someone else and that she wants me to move on. I lost a lot of weight, and my appetite decreased. She does not give a single **** about me now and I'm not sure What to do. She specified that she built a wall in her head towards me and that she's over me completely, Tjeee guy she said I was better than her ex and lucky to have. She knows I'm emotional and is aware that I applied to another school to attempt to run away but am actually staying. I'm destroyed and she's perfectly find. She said I looked pale and proceeded on treating me like a lesser person. This is a girl that I slept with in the same bed for the past few months.

I hate the fraternity for the distance it created. She won't even talk to me now and finished all her exams while I practically messed up my semester... I'm still in love with her. How can I show her after all the ffighting and resentment and coldness that I still am that guy she fell in love with, even through my apperent depression. She thinks I'm a joke now...

[Chi townD]

See, this is why I NEVER did the greek lifestyle while I was in college. It's okay for some and they love it. Too much bullsh*t for me to have dealt with. My workload was heavy and I wouldn't have had the time. And I guess, you're feeling it now too. You can't juggle the frat, schoolwork and a relationship and have everyone be happy.

 

So, I say leave her alone. Remember everytime that you start missing her what she said to you, that you were nothing more than a fling to her. That's what she thought of you. Hopefully, that will give you enough motivation to not contact her. If she lives 4 doors down from you. Move buildings, move to a different floor. The last thing you need to see is you going to class first thing in the morning and seeing a guy leaving her room. And guess what? That's going to happen. So, move.

 

Live your life. You're in college! Some of the best years in your life! Enjoy them! There are hundreds of other people that belong to that University, go meet them! Don't get hung up on one!