itsmyfault Posted December 18, 2012 Posted December 18, 2012 Well Basically Im not sleeping at all!!!! It has been over a month since I had any form of contact with my ex. The last two days have been hell, As soon as I get to bed she is all I think about, no thoughts during the day or anything else. For the last two years I have spent Christmas abroad with her and her Family, All of my dreams seem to be related to that. Last night I dreamt I had arrived there and she wasn't there at this point we were separated. For some reason I was going round the house and the garden undoing anything I had done to help them while I was over there, Taking away and trace I ever existed. I built a bed frame the first time I was there but in my dream It wasn't there. Later on in the day of my dream my ex arrived back at her house, I walked passed and blanked her, later seeing her struggling to make this bed frame and just walking on by.... It almost sounds like im being horrible, I really cant explain it, Maybe my subconscious is trying to remve every last trace of her? Anyway I don't care why my head is doing it, I just want it to stop, I need some sleepppppp
th90 Posted December 18, 2012 Posted December 18, 2012 Hey, I know how terrible it is. I remember waking up from a dream about my ex OUT OF HEARTACHE. wtf. I find being religious and spiritual helps a lot. The only way to feel better has to come from yourself. I just came back from a movie and I couldn't help but miss my ex's presence so much. It's my first movie since the BU and the coldness and darkness in the movie theater were killing me. Anyway, I live by a new quote now. It's "Letting you go is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. However it's the greatest form of love and self-liberation". The thing that moves me to tears now is the love that I have for him. It's a magical feeling that I can't describe in words. I don't feel hurtful thinking about the break up anymore. It's a sign that I've come to terms with it. Well crappy days may hit me soon but for the meantime I'm striving on. I hope you will get through this feeling you have right now and feel awesome about yourself again!
Axee Posted December 18, 2012 Posted December 18, 2012 I am sorry to hear that.. It happens.. and its part of the healing process.. I have successfully come out of a break up which happened over a year and half back and now I am truly , completely healed. It was a trauma to me and everyday I found it difficult to get out of bed and night times were worse....Sometimes I used to go to my office loo and cry there ... ( 2 to 3 months later that is ) I undertook many self -help psychotherapy books, especially one book called women who love too much which was an eye opener. But with time, it heals, we all are here for you.. I am here for you..take care and cry , crying helps 1
cavalier99 Posted December 18, 2012 Posted December 18, 2012 (edited) I am sorry to hear that.. It happens.. and its part of the healing process.. I have successfully come out of a break up which happened over a year and half back and now I am truly , completely healed. It was a trauma to me and everyday I found it difficult to get out of bed and night times were worse....Sometimes I used to go to my office loo and cry there ... ( 2 to 3 months later that is ) I undertook many self -help psychotherapy books, especially one book called women who love too much which was an eye opener. But with time, it heals, we all are here for you.. I am here for you..take care and cry , crying helps Im going out with old friends a lot. Im spending time alone but also am jumping at opportunities to go out. Last night went to a Christmas party of a person i hadnt seen in 10 years. He is manager at a restaurant and there were hot waitresses everywhere. Talking to all these girls, downing shots, and just having fun was awesome! Im not recommending drinking necessarily but if you do something it will be easier to sleep. Try to have fun and live life to the Max! I didn't feel like going out but forced myself too and it was a blast. Totally eliminated my ex from my mind for a while! Even got a number from a smoking hot girl. Eventually my ex will be completely gone form my mind! Yours too! Yeah dreams suck. I made a post about one a while back. Edited December 18, 2012 by cavalier99 1
Suziee Posted December 19, 2012 Posted December 19, 2012 It almost sounds like im being horrible, I really cant explain it, Maybe my subconscious is trying to remve every last trace of her? Anyway I don't care why my head is doing it, I just want it to stop, I need some sleepppppp I was just reading something about how it is normal, in fact healthy, for a person to process events through dreams. Don't assign too much meaning to it. The past few days, I've tried to fall asleep by imagining someone nice, not my ex, hugging me and consequently, I've had dreams, mostly silly and not neccessarily romantic, of being with other guys. I wake up amused. (Don't judge me, I'm not that daffy.)
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