kingsfield Posted December 18, 2012 Posted December 18, 2012 Hi guys, I am new to this forum, i register this website cause i heard good people gives out good advise. =) I have a huge problem in my life that need to sort out but I just don't know who to turn to. Let me tell you a story about this girl i like, I am truly sorry about my english as it is not my primary language. Last 3 months ago, I met this girl, she's an ambition girl and have a strong personality. She also like guys who is slim and tall. I have none of that what she wanted. I am studying film and television in a college, she is my producer and I am the director. We work together quite well, thought sometime she always like to show off what she's capable. After a month of pre-production, i got to know her quite well and she seems a nice girl to hang out with, although whenever i talk to her, she always wants to fish compliment from me. One day, before the shooting, I told her, that i have feeling for her, but she told me it's isn't the right time for me to tell her this. I says ok and give her space to think about it. After couple of days, i see her on facebook and talk to her, such as offering help on other project but she blew me off saying mean thing to me. So I just left it like that. After that week, I told her that we need to talk about this feeling for you that I had, she told me "really? do we have to? i thought i gave you a clear hint". I reply in a gentleman telling her it's not a big deal, tension of awkwardness is high so I leave. After production, the shooting start, and whenever we have break for lunch, and nobody were there, I confronted her apologies that what had happen between us. She accepted and we were cool about it but what really bother me is she kept looking at me and glancing me at me, yes I caught her but she also caught me looking at her. Unfortunately, at that time, we were very stress that day and have to cancel the shoot for the last day and postpone for another day to shoot. So after that, I had to sort out of my feeling for her, I got a little piss because nobody in my crew were supporting me and we have a lot of argument, there is one time i throw a temper tantrum at her and few of my key crew member, I shouldn't have done that but you know, as director I need to do that. Couple of days later, i got really pissed, I don't want to talk to her cause clearly she thinks I am an idiot. I avoided her, ignore her and doesn't talk to her, she come talk to me about what had happening with the postpone shot, I didn't talk to her and talk to her one of the key crew to sort that thing out. When I was in a pub, i see her and her close-friend of her, which is a guy, walks in. I immediately leaves the pub. The postpone shooting was schedule and it was my birthday, nobody knows about my birthday but she knows it because she sees my facebook birthday notifications. She brought me a cake and treated me really nice and friendly. It feels like she's my friend. Nice gesture, but clearly *** up my mind. After this incident, we are in post-production now, i thought we were cool, but i was wrong, during that week, she treated me hot and cold for couple of week, yes there are a lot of stuff that have happen to her that stressing her out. I stayed a distance between her I want to be friends with her, whenever we talk, she's always seem nervous and feels really awkward. After that, I gave up to be friends with her, the hot and cold treatment is too much for me handle, I decided that to stay a distance away from her.. but no matter how much i try, she always pulls me back for me to give her attention. There is this one time that i text her that I miss her, but she reply "thanks" and talk about the film production. After the following week, I feels that I should confront her how i feel, it feels like she's playing mind games with me, I told her whose idea to brought the cake and an explanation of the hot and cold treatment , she never gives closure but lie to my face. After this incident, she sorta act really awkward toward me, never look me into my eyes anymore. Thought she tease me when i talk to her, then she and her friends try to fish compliment from me to her. It's annoying. However, whenever i walks behind her, she always turn her head and look at me, to check whether I am looking at her or not, and she caught me looking at her. Now, we are almost there, film festival night for 3 days, we never talk anymore, she kept looking at me and glancing at me. This time i never look at her no more, sometime she make it plain obvious that she look at me, but i didn't look back and ignore her, whenever i don't look back, she leaves, it seems like she is avoiding me for some reason. The last day of film festival, my film got into the special category of the award nights. Long story short, the films won a lot of award, i got the best director award. I gave a speech, after that, my classmate told me that she is looking at me, and have a big smiles on her face. I guess she is proud of me. After the ceremony, she is waiting outside the lobby, i shake her hand and hugs her. After that, we have after party going in the pub, i went there, i sees her kept looking at me, i felt like she wants to talk to me but i am too busy entertaining other people. I got a little drunk at that time, when i says good bye to all my classmate, I hugs her and ask for a kiss, she says no but then i asks for kiss in cheek, i kiss her on the cheek and leave home. Tomorrow when i woke up, i was like wtf did i do??!? Yesterday, i was drinking with my classmate, suddenly she appear out of nowhere sat beside us. One of my classmate knows whats going on and we switch seat. I saw her and a close-friend of hers, i think i have been paranoid, in the corner of my eyes she she's kissing her close-friend which is a guy in front of me. Then I found out the entire school, including my classmate know that I like her. It's realy akward i can tell you that. I want to move on with my life, I am frustrated, angry and I don't know why she did all that to mess with my emotion. She is also in my social circle which mean in the future I will see her. I don't know what to do! Guys, I really need your advise. Why don't she leave me alone..!
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