kristi628 Posted December 17, 2012 Posted December 17, 2012 I know he has moved on. And it hurts like crazy. I'm distracted all the time. I feel like my work is slipping, I am consumed with thoughts of him and his new relationship. It's a dead end street I'm traveling on. But I cant seem to stop. It's been 3 weeks since the BU. And they have been together 2 weeks. I was still checking twitter on a daily basis. I have since stopped and have been complete NC for almost a week. Hardest week of my life. I just cant seem to wrap my head around how I was replaced so easily, so fast. I have received two texts from him since the split. 1 to say he went to our apt to get his clothes (he still left everything else of his there) and another text that led to an argument bc I want to move back home where I have friends and family and he was complaining bc I wont let him move into the apt. There still 2 months left on the lease. In the mean time he has moved on with someone else. They appear happy. Constantly together and constantly tweeting about the other. I dont know why I cant stop thinking about him. I dont even want him back. He cheated and constantly lied and never treated me half as good as I treated him. And yet I lay in bed last night and think of them just sitting on the couch just as we would. My mind drifted to his laugh and his overall personality. How he would make me laugh and our shows we would watch together every Sunday. And my heart broke a little more. Someone else gets to hold him and hear that laughter. He is looking at her in the way that makes her feel like she's the most beautiful girl in the world because that's how he would look at me. This just keeps getting harder.
Toddbt12y1 Posted December 17, 2012 Posted December 17, 2012 They are in the honeymoon phase. Which means they will constantly be up each others' butts. Talk about each other. This will come to an end, when reality settles in. Then what? She is left with a cheater? Doesn't sound like she has anything great... 3
Author kristi628 Posted December 17, 2012 Author Posted December 17, 2012 I don't know why this is so hard to get over. I know it's only been 3 weeks. But I want to be able to close my eyes and not see his face. To not feel like I cant breathe as I walk around our lonely apartment. To not want to hear his voice anymore. I can't stop thinking about all the good things about him. Maybe it's the fact that my ego is bruised because I was so easily replaced. Maybe it's because I miss him. It's a really sh*tty feeling knowing that the one you loved is somewhere with someone else. And they are definitely NOT thinking about you while you lay in bed tearing up at the thought of them. It really crushes ones self esteem.
Author kristi628 Posted December 17, 2012 Author Posted December 17, 2012 This is just a general question for everyone. Might even post it in a new thread. I know most of us are committed to NC. BUT, of all the ones that were left, cheated on, lied to, and had to watch their BF/GF move on quickly with another....out of those relationships, How many of those lasted (as far as you know)???? I know I cant wait for them to break up or fall apart...especially not in this phase....BUT I would feel SO much better if they did. It's coming from a place of hurt and anger but it's the truth.
Toddbt12y1 Posted December 17, 2012 Posted December 17, 2012 This is just a general question for everyone. Might even post it in a new thread. I know most of us are committed to NC. BUT, of all the ones that were left, cheated on, lied to, and had to watch their BF/GF move on quickly with another....out of those relationships, How many of those lasted (as far as you know)???? I know I cant wait for them to break up or fall apart...especially not in this phase....BUT I would feel SO much better if they did. It's coming from a place of hurt and anger but it's the truth. I was cheated on as you know, but I am not sure if they are still together or not. I try and not look(beside some random polyp of a friend suggestion on fb, which only showed an image of her and all her other ones where.) When I went through the spy /stalk phase I noticed her and that dude got phones together, same kind. That is al really. Now I know the chances for a cheater (especially serial) to cheat again is pretty high. Just wait for the real world to set in, and he might cheat on her. No promise, but he might. (I don't want to know if my ex and him brokeup as it would do me little good...she would go screw someone else.)
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