I made it!! feeling of emptiness?

[KJBA2816]

Yesterday was his birthday and not that he was expecting nor cared if I did, I did not wish him a happy birthday. This was the first birthday since 2007 I had not organised or been a part of with him. I have felt okay but I still have this sad-ish feeling, this emptiness and I feel I am improving as I have been going out, talking about other things, meeting new people rather than the first few weeks I was in my room, cried over wanting him back, stalked his fb page and wanted to know where he was. But he left me for another girl he had been talking to whilst we were together, a girl of a few weeks but he had been with me for 14 months, in which he dragged me backwards through cr*p and eventually when I had fallen so in love with him, he dumps me and tells me he had been using me until a better offer came through, which it did. She went to his party, she mingled with the family and its her not me and I feel okay-ish with that, much better than before because I know I deserve to be treated better and this poor girl will get what me and off his million and one exes have had in a relationship with him. I just can't shake off this emptiness, like a loss even though I do not miss him, I do not want to contact him and I do not want him back. I lost so much whilst being with him and he told me not to worry cause I'd always have him.. yeah right BS! But I dunno if this is me coming to terms with what I lost because of him or what? I feel okay just a bit sad/hollow? thoughts? much love x

[sadbunnyy]

i wont wish my ex a happy birthday either...don't really care what he does for his bday or who he spends it with! stay strong! cut all contact with him and better yourself! he'll wonder what you've been up to. you've got more important things to do than wish that loser a happy bday

[KJBA2816]

I guess I just need to keep myself focussed on no contact and keeping my head above water I will not contact it.. its been almost a week since NC and I will not be breaking it, thanks for your kind words x

[Esoteric Elf]

This boy is not worth what he puts in the toilet. Abandon him.