I'm having a really hard day, I shouldn't contact him right?

[tuxedo cat]

I was visiting my parents and got into a terrible argument with my father. He said some things that made me feel really low.

 

My ex and I haven't spoken in about 5 days -- he last initiated contact -- and I'm now getting this overwhelming urge to call him and tell him about what happened.

 

Please talk me out of this.

[tuxedo cat]

anyone?...

[spaniard]

I hope it's not too late. Don't contact him, it's going to be so much worse. Try to occupy your mind with something else. Watch a funny movie, read a book, open a bottle of wine. Whatever, just don't contact him, please.

[itsmakaela]

Nope , don't do it. Talk to a friend instead, a close friend.

[Toddbt12y1]

I am sorry that no one has answered you. I wouldn't contact him. If it's been fifteen days of NC why break it now? I don't know why you two broke up. But if bad enough for NC...I wouldn't.

 

Hopefully this bumps your thread and more knowledgable members help

[spaniard]

Write down what you want to say to him, then threw it away.

[tuxedo cat]

hey guys, you're the best, thanks so much for answering. I haven't contacted him yet. Your words of encouragement have really helped.

 

I'll write out here what I wish I could say to him:

 

I really miss you. There are so many things I want to share with you throughout the day but can't. I know if you knew how much I was missing you right now it'd only make you value me less. This is part of why I can't talk to you, because I wouldn't be able to hide the shakiness of my voice, or I'd notice how detached you sound and panic and tell you I miss you. Also, the stress of the constant highs and lows was making me physically ill. I don't miss that. I do miss the glow that lasted for a few hours after we spoke.

 

I wonder if this is even a fraction as hard for you as it is for me.