PrinceAli94 Posted December 13, 2012 Posted December 13, 2012 Hi all, as of late I've become disillusioned with life in general. It sounds bad (and it is) But only occasionally feel sad/down about it. I've just stopped caring about thins more than I should. I get this constant nagging feeling of wasted time and opportunity. I'm a Community College student right now, at the end of my senior year all my university prospects were sabotaged by bad scheduling on my part and the school's. Thanks to that and the lowered GPA as a result, I'm in CC. The experience left me burnt out and now I feel no desire to continue with school. I only really do it because I don't want my parents or grandfather to worry. But stopped caring about school work ever since the the senior year incident. I've always had conflicting views of college, and a large part of me is starting to question if I even need a diploma to make it in the world. Often times when applying for jobs, it's more about who you know, than what, and this mentality bothers me. If I could become one thing in life, it would be a director, or a cinematographer. One doesn't need film school to achieve those things. Anything taught to me in a classroom could be learned from a book on my own, in a library. It just takes dedication and initiative Trying to make the decision to drop out has been very difficult because of the potential repercussions and reactions from family members. Before I decide to make my decision, I'm thinking of taking a vison quest to find inspiration and better understand if this is what I truly want out of life. A vision quest is a rite of passage, similiar to an initiation, in some Native American cultures. It is a turning point in life taken to find oneself and the intended spiritual and life direction. Kinda like a transitional phase, I guess. It can be anywhere, in the woods or in a big city, But I see it as a way to recalibrate your desire's and motivate yourself upon returning to your normal life, hopefully then renewed with new vigor. Does this all seem like a crazy idea to any of you LS members? Maybe I am jumping the gun and simply trying to avoid my problems, not solve them. What do you all think? Any opinions are appreciated. 2
meeji Posted December 23, 2012 Posted December 23, 2012 I dropped out. The only regret I have are my student loans but i would drop out again if history repeated. DO WHATS BEST FOR YOU
tman666 Posted December 23, 2012 Posted December 23, 2012 I think a vision quest is a great idea. I would recommend somewhere with not a ton of people, but I can see how a big, unfamiliar city might work too. The key is finding somewhere that allows you to "get back to the basics". For me, backpacking in the mountains or desert is ideal to clear the mind and allow yourself time to discover what direction you need or want to take with something. I don't see something like this as problem avoidance at all.
NewPerspective93 Posted December 27, 2012 Posted December 27, 2012 Wow, I've actually been thinking of doing this myself, but I had no idea what it was called. I say go for it! If anything, it will help you become more connected with yourself as you will be independent from the world, regardless of where you go for this vision quest. Care to elaborate more on what this means? Also, what would you do? Walk around, talk to different people? Meeji, why did you drop out?
Author PrinceAli94 Posted December 30, 2012 Author Posted December 30, 2012 (edited) Well, a vision quest can be whatever you want it to be, and however long. I think the important thing to remember though is to keep it structured. The quest isn't necessarily the solution, but the process in which you identify one. I think a lot of people my age tend to go on vision quests without realizing it, it usually appears in the form of wanting to take a year off from school and traveling. The concern I have with this mindset is, people tend to treat such things as vacation. The quest (to me at least) isn't about going on holiday and having fun, but like tman666 said, getting back to the basics. Which is the reason why I'll be avoiding big attractive cities. I'm a young guy and consider myself outgoing, the city does offer me chances to meet new people and have new experiences, but to an extent that can prove to be problematic. It'll become more about me gooting off in NYC or San Francisco than having some much needed one-on-one time with myself. Remote locations are ideal, but everybody is different, so do what you feel is the best for YOU. My vision quest will be about coming to a decision, should I continue with school or not. Coming out of one, I think the end result should always be positive and forward thinking with a new goal in mind, and most importantly, no baggage. Edited December 30, 2012 by PrinceAli94
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