How dare you ask me how I'm doing.

[Javabear]

Want to know what makes me angry? I emailed my ex this morning saying that I was going to drop all the stuff he's left at my apartment at his place because I can't stand to see it here anymore and for some reason he hasn't come to get it because according to him he "hasn't found a ride over here." After going back and forth about what he still had here and my plan to drop it off etc. he had the nerve to ask me how I've been!

 

Well, let's see... I've been MISERABLE to say the least. I have been failing for the last three months to talk my heart out of love, I have been losing sleep imagining him with someone else, I've been sick to my stomach on a daily basis about my parents' divorce all while trying to maintain good grades in school. I will not give him the satisfaction of knowing any of this because in truth, I have found immense strength in all this misery. I have found enough strength to finally feel anger towards him for his cowardice. Thank god we didn't end up moving in together or even worse, get married. I would have been making the biggest mistake of my life vowing to be with someone forever who could so easily let me go.

 

I'm sure that tomorrow I will be back to missing him and wishing he'd come back, but for right now I'm going to revel in the fact that he walked away from someone who had nothing but unconditional love and devotion to him and the only thing I ended up losing was someone who never really valued me at all.

[thoughtyouweretheone]

I hear ya sista. I think you've pretty much summed that one up! When you look at it that way..It's pretty silly for us to feel like this when they don't. Although, as someone who's put their heart and soul into this person you can't help but feel like it was a waste of time. IT IS NOT! The kind of strength that comes from this is soooo priceless. We are in control now, and all they need to know about us is that we are happier without them. Fake it 'till you make it! At least we appreciate our own efforts. We are not quitters & have so much to offer the next lucky bastard! Stay strong!