lolwutb Posted December 11, 2012 Posted December 11, 2012 I have been dating my now boyfriend for around 2 1/2 months now. I love him so much I could die lol. Not only is he everything I wanted and didn't know I wanted but we have been extremely close for the past two years and I've pined after him all the time. The only reason we didn't date was because he was in a long term relationship. He very recently decided he couldn't and shouldn't really be without me anymore and took the leap to break up with her and move out of the apartment they shared. He didn't just do it for me, but also for himself. And so far it's been absolutely wonderful! We are the kind of people who are kind of distant and introverted and altogether sort of mean to strangers or new people but with each other we are in his words "just a basket of kittens" haha. It was so new and exciting to finally be able to be with him without any sort of shame. We have had amazing sex... more amazing than I've ever felt with anyone before. We're also the kind of people who are just really honest and don't really hide anything with each other. I think, speaking personally, that it was just a habit that carried over from being such close friends and talking to him quite constantly for I guess its actually 3 years now? Like I'll probably even tell him about how I joined this website and posted a thread about us asking for advice lol. And then we will probably laugh about how goofy I am. So where's the problem? There really isn't or at least I think it's just me self-destructing and trying to pick apart something amazing. I just love him so much I don't want it to end as badly and horribly as every single one of my other relationships have. I guess I've just never known what it is to have something healthy and I look at everything as a possible sign of danger. I know it has recently been stressing him out just a little at least. For example, I get analytical about how many texts he sends me a day now. I mean before when we were friends I couldn't stand to not talk to him for more than a couple of hours, and I guess that semi carried over into the relationship but I was more at peace and just thrilled to be with him that I didn't even notice. But when we began to date we certainly intensified everything, talking to each other even MORE constantly than before. Now it has kind of evened back out to how it was when we were friends... which I'm not sure if I should be alarmed by that or if I'm just freaking crazy? I don't want that crazy firey spark between us that was so apparent at first to just die down to a dull roar. I don't want him to just be in a relationship with me, a girl. I want it to be that crazy loving everything that it felt like. I mean, should I back off? Should I just try not to kill myself overanalyzing things or should I be generally worried about the upkeep of our relationship? Last night we had the same wonderful cuddling sessions and I was still pretty turned on by him but some amount of it felt like I was forcing it just to prove to myself that I could single handedly keep us both interested or something. Not at all like it isn't still real to me, but he's a really sharp guy and I don't want him to get the impression that I'm forcing anything. That would crush me. I'm sort of rambling now... Point is.. am I crazy irrational? Did I not provide enough info for you to make a valid assumption? Or should I do something before we slide off the grid? Help!
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