heart broken

[racing]

sorry in advance for the long story i recently broke up with my girlfriend well now ex we broke up about 2 months ago we were vary happy together we were with each other for like a year and 1 month i did everything for her if she wanted something i would get it we were always together i would sleep at her house and she would sleep at mine going on trips and etc her family adores in me and vise a versa we were talking about getting married and we were even trying to start a family but we always argued about my ex see my ex was always bothering us with texts or private calls i was always saying i don't want anything to do with her but my girlfriend was always thinking different like i did want her but i even told my ex in front of my girlfriend to leave me alone it stop for awhile then a week before we broke up my girlfriend started fighting about that again it got so bad that i said im done well i guess you can tell i feel like i made a mistake and yes i did all the things they say not to i begged i cried but i love her so much i would do anything for her here's a example i even bought the car she has been looking at but i was saving it for her birthday but we broke before that so i never gave it to her well as everyone knows she didn't take me back but still would text me for like a week we were always texting but then she stop responding so i stop texting then like 5 days later she text i hope ur okay so i text back im fine sad but fine she text back ya me too im just day by day so we text back and forth for like a hour then we said good night the next day i text good morning and hope you have a good day she never responded so here the confusing part this keeps happening she responds then nothing she told me in a text that she still cares about me but dont want a relationship right now so i said okay and stop texting but then it started again we see each other on a regular basis so when we see each other she ignores me but when i look up she is always looking at me if i walk by her she smiles but wont talk to me im so confused on what to do i have been vary hurt and emotional i dont stop crying and i even contemplated killing my self thats how much i miss her but she just keeps going hot and cold one day she cares and we text then she drops me flat one of are friends told me just leave it she playing with you but then her brother tells me dont give up just give it time she just confused on what she wants but im lost i truly love this woman she is the most beautiful girl in the world to me she knows that cause i always complemented her about everything and every chance i got i bought rose i wish there was a way that i could just convince her to take me back so please if i can have any advise it would be greatly appreciated im so depressed im even going to start consulting cause i fill worthless i tried so hard with her and i was not good enough for a second chance

Edited December 11, 2012 by racing