ja2012 Posted December 11, 2012 Posted December 11, 2012 My ex and I have been broken up since 1/11/12 but we were still seeing each other a few times up til May. I was being stubborn and mean because of all the issues that we going on. Basically I messed things up and he did things also. I felt that I needed to work on myself to be a better person over all and I pushed him away and wanted him to go on, which was a lie. I worked on the issues that I had and found a way to improve them. I felt that with time and space away from each other, we would be bettering ourselves for the good and be able to slowly work things out together. I was also feeling that since I messed things up so bad (I didn't cheat on him), that he wouldn't give me another chance. It took me months before I had enough courage to contact him and when I did, he was nice. I asked to meet him the next day and he agreed. When we saw each other we hug and cried and said we forgave each other for the past issues. My intentions were to let him know what I wanted to do and see if it was possible. He then informed me that he had just met someone and they only had been talking for a few weeks. I then said to him I guess I don't have a chance. He tells me that it's not serious to the point that he can't get out. I told myself, I love this man so much, I'm willing to fight for him. Now that I have put myself out there and let him know how I felt, he saying that he doesn't know if he can get past the hurt. I'm really feeling discouraged and don't know what to do. I want him to see the changes but I don't want to pressure him and seem needy and desperate. I'm at a lost at this point and don't know what I should do next.
mistakesmakeyouwhat Posted December 11, 2012 Posted December 11, 2012 My ex and I have been broken up since 1/11/12 but we were still seeing each other a few times up til May. I was being stubborn and mean because of all the issues that we going on. Basically I messed things up and he did things also. I felt that I needed to work on myself to be a better person over all and I pushed him away and wanted him to go on, which was a lie. I worked on the issues that I had and found a way to improve them. I felt that with time and space away from each other, we would be bettering ourselves for the good and be able to slowly work things out together. I was also feeling that since I messed things up so bad (I didn't cheat on him), that he wouldn't give me another chance. It took me months before I had enough courage to contact him and when I did, he was nice. I asked to meet him the next day and he agreed. When we saw each other we hug and cried and said we forgave each other for the past issues. My intentions were to let him know what I wanted to do and see if it was possible. He then informed me that he had just met someone and they only had been talking for a few weeks. I then said to him I guess I don't have a chance. He tells me that it's not serious to the point that he can't get out. I told myself, I love this man so much, I'm willing to fight for him. Now that I have put myself out there and let him know how I felt, he saying that he doesn't know if he can get past the hurt. I'm really feeling discouraged and don't know what to do. I want him to see the changes but I don't want to pressure him and seem needy and desperate. I'm at a lost at this point and don't know what I should do next. I know the feeling. Exactly how I'm feeling. No girl wants to hurt their boyfriend. Ever. And its not like you cheated on him. It's his turn to make the decisions. If he wants you back, he'll come back.
Author ja2012 Posted December 11, 2012 Author Posted December 11, 2012 I keep telling myself that if he loves me, that should prevail over all and we can work on us to make it work for the better but every time we speak, it seems more and more like I'm losing. I don't want to seem needy because I'm not but at the same time, I want him to see that I have made the necessary changes in myself to be a better person. I feel I'm fighting an uphill battle and my love is the only defense that I have. I've never felt I had to fight for anything but I'm putting my all into trying to win him back.
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