youngnlove89 Posted December 10, 2012 Posted December 10, 2012 My heart hurts. I know it is over. I will NOT contact him. And I will not talk to him if he tries to initiate contact. But my heart just plain hurts. I haven't really cried, I am just sad. (I think I can't cry because after how many times we broke up, I am just used to the pain) I miss the comfort of him and having someone there. I am just lonely. I just want to kiss, cuddle, and have him hold me. How do you get through it? I can't wait to go to work tomorrow just to get my mind off of him and that says a lot considering work is a toxic environment for me right now. I have a girl who threatened to hurt me and I hate my job. I get treated like crap there. And then on Thursday I have a doctors appointment because my tests came out abnormal and something is wrong with my heart. All this stress has literally made me ill. And he was the one I used to talk to about everything. Now he isn't there anymore... Someone cheer me up
you_had_me Posted December 10, 2012 Posted December 10, 2012 You sound like me... It's hard... and I think the tears will come and it will be a relief - but you're probably still in shock. And breaking up multiple times will have meant that you have built up a wall to protect yourself. It's ok, it's normal and you will be ok. Even if the grief comes, know that that's a good thing. It will hurt like hell, but it's a process and you will be fine. If it doesn't come maybe it's a sign that you're ok and you just miss the attachment - which is fine too, love is a drug, who wouldn't want to feel good in the arms of someone else?! Hang in there.
catluvr2 Posted December 10, 2012 Posted December 10, 2012 You will soon be ok sweetie!! =) Time heals all wounds. I know I have my moments when I cry at random times because I think of memories of my ex and I, but I just try not to think about it by keeping busy and focusing on myself for now.
Author youngnlove89 Posted December 10, 2012 Author Posted December 10, 2012 Thanks. I know time heals. But it's been a week now and it is now just kicking in. I know I need to let him go, but it feels like losing someone over death. He wont be in my life anymore. I'll soon forget things, the way he talked, the way he smelt, the way he looked at me. That makes me sad because that means he will forget too.
Mr.White Posted December 10, 2012 Posted December 10, 2012 I have not experienced my first break up yet but I will be soon. I say do not try and force yourself to move on. You invested yourself into your ex, people move on at different speeds. Just keep your head high and listen to music. I find this song really helpful if you like rock. Sick Puppies- Maybe I hope everything goes well for you. Don't do anything drastic and dumb, life goes on.
808 an Heartbreaks Posted December 10, 2012 Posted December 10, 2012 I agree, don't force yourself to move own. My ex- move on very quickly after we broke up an I later found out she was recruiting my replacement the whole time I was on deployment. When she told me it was over an she was gonna start dating I found it a shock that she was dating after a week until someone told me what she was up too. She was truly my first love an my wounds still bleed I just started to stop picking at them an let them heal. I miss that comfort of sleeping in the bed with her eveynite as well...but she was played me an now it's a lot easier for me to move on knowing that it wasn't my fault
Drseussgrrl Posted December 10, 2012 Posted December 10, 2012 "My heart hurts. I know it is over. I will NOT contact him. And I will not talk to him if he tries to initiate contact." I really hope you mean it this time.
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