flyerman5 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 Back in late September, my girlfriend broke up with me. We had only been going out officially for a few months, and during that time we had a great relationship and got along really well. We like each other immensely, and I felt on top of the world. But our relationship was clouded by something I won't go into too much detail about, but it involved a couple things in my life that I simply could not take care of while I was with her. She knew about these things, and despite them she still wanted to be with me, saying she would only do it for me. Those things would sometimes creep up, and it would bother her but it was never a big deal. But somewhere down the line she changed her mind, decided that she couldn't handle them anymore. When we broke up it was devastating. We talked a couple of days later and she said that she very much wanted to still be friends and that she only broke up with me cuz of my situation, not because she didn't like me or felt i was the right guy for her. We remained very close the last 2 months it never felt like we broke up at all. We texted everyday and hung out together a few times as friends. A few times we kissed and were even sexually active. Like i said, it felt as if we were never separated, cuz i think deep down we still longed for each other and very much wanted to be together, even if it wasn't "official". But then, last Sunday, she told me that i should find out from her, that she was going out on a date with someone else. She said that she wanted to be with me more than anything, but because of my situation not changing anytime soon, she needed to move on. I told her i understood and i didn't blame or resent her. and just like that, after texting and calling each other everyday, I haven't spoken to her since. I've been extremely depressed everyday since. I know I have to move on too. What has me depressed the most is that i don't know how to feel about the future. should i just move on and forget all about it? should i keep a hope alive that we will get back together? our relationship ended not because we didn't like each other or because we drifted apart or there was someone else; it ended because of something neither one of us could control at the time. i feel as if our relationship never got a chance to fully blossom because of a stigma attached to it. the situation im in will be resolved next year, hopefully much sooner than later. but when it is, should i try to restart our relationship? or just accept it as it was and move on? i miss her like crazy and despite not talking to her, i know she probably misses me too. i feel as if sometimes i should've never gone out with her, but i have no regrets whatsoever. i want to know in my heart if i should give it a second chance when things have been taken care of. i worry she will begin dating alot and move on completely. its a fear that i may have to accept, and it hurts so bad. I just don't know what to do.
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