youngnlove89 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 Lately things seem to have been falling apart around me. I am recently single after a 1.5 year relationship, I feel threatened by my job everyday (entirely long story), I'm broke and in debt and I have some recent new health issues. On top of all that, the only real friend I have is my mother. I don't have friends that I can hang out with on the weekend, I'm sort of a loner. I do nothing but work, sleep and eat. Lately, I feel angry all the time and sad. And when I feel like I'm about to cry, I can't because I'm so angry. Only good thing about all my recent drama is that I don't have time to focus on the heartbreak of a failed relationship. I have too many other stresses to be focusing on why things didn't work out for us. Yet, it still hurts me and I know it will surface soon. Sometimes I wish that I could just die. By car accident, by cancer, whatever it is. I know that isn't normal. And the last few months, I've been praying that God take me and not someone who wants to live. I would hate to say I'm depressed, but rather very very stressed. Depressed just sounds like a bad word to me. I don't know how to fix me. I have lost me.
ItxWillxGetxBetter Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 Wow...that seems like a lot of issues. At one point in my life I felt that way. I felt that everything around me was falling apart. A friend told me something that always made me feel better and today it still holds true for me. "Its always darkest before the Dawn". Things may feel like they are crappy now but it will get better. On top of that I know the issues that you are going through may seem overwhelming right now but there are people in worst off situations. Sometimes taking a step back and getting a little perspective does the trick. I know it doesn't seem like it now but it usually gets better. I hope you do feel better and try to look past all the crap and focus on something positive in your life. If you need to vent come on here and post and i'm sure everyone here will try to help you out. Good luck.
na49 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 You may be lost now, but you CAN find yourself. Realize what you have and be happy for that instead of being angry about what you had or don't have. (assuming that your anger is about the relationship situation). I know that's easier said than done, but it's all you can do. It doesn't pay to let life keep you down all the time.
KatZee Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 Lately things seem to have been falling apart around me. I am recently single after a 1.5 year relationship, I feel threatened by my job everyday (entirely long story), I'm broke and in debt and I have some recent new health issues. On top of all that, the only real friend I have is my mother. I don't have friends that I can hang out with on the weekend, I'm sort of a loner. I do nothing but work, sleep and eat. Lately, I feel angry all the time and sad. And when I feel like I'm about to cry, I can't because I'm so angry. Only good thing about all my recent drama is that I don't have time to focus on the heartbreak of a failed relationship. I have too many other stresses to be focusing on why things didn't work out for us. Yet, it still hurts me and I know it will surface soon. Sometimes I wish that I could just die. By car accident, by cancer, whatever it is. I know that isn't normal. And the last few months, I've been praying that God take me and not someone who wants to live. I would hate to say I'm depressed, but rather very very stressed. Depressed just sounds like a bad word to me. I don't know how to fix me. I have lost me. Wishing that you would die isn't a result of being stressed. That's a result of severe depression and I absolutely don't doubt that you are. You NEED to start making positive changes in your life. No one is going to do this for you. You need to seek professional help. If you have insurance it should cover something. You need to take actions to making new friends. I can't imagine you enjoy living life friendless and doing nothing but sitting inside staring at your walls. You need to put yourself out there. Don't use the excuse, "I'm a loner." Is it possible to start putting together a resume and looking for a new job? Clearly what you have now isn't working, you're broke and in debt. Start writing down lists and plans for saving money and for paying off debt. Everything in your life requires action right now, sitting around doing nothing about it won't help you. It all comes down to you. YOU. 1
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