jayy23 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 past couple of months things have been feeling a lot better than they did but for a couple of days now I've been thinking about her alot to the the point that I'm getting really anxious. I keep getting this really strong feeling that I WANT her back. she has made it clear that she is not interested so I know deep down that getting her back is not goina happen but can't help but think to myself how much I would love for her to change her mind. I keep getting images in my head of her with other guys and it's making me feel angry and upset. she doesn't even want to have anything to do with me anymore I dont get that. things never ended badly and the relationship was really good. nearly 5years together and now she won't even talk to me.
LostOne1 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 I sometimes have these fall in days too man. 5 yrs is a long time. 3 yrs for me and it's tough too. I don't know how someone gives up those yrs worth of great moments. I guess they really have had to find a way to hate us to move on. I still don't know how my ex is managing to move on. I think part of her is probably hurting inside, but her ego won't let her show it. It sucks man.. but it's part of life. We can't always get what we want, when we want and how we want. I learned that the hard way. In life I usually almost always got what I needed.. for once I couldn;t and nor could I control it. Not like you can buy someones love or them back. All I know is slowly time will pass and it won't matter as much anymore. One thing I will say buddy... LIVE life. Enjoy it as if today is your last day. I find then you will feel better. Just imagine tmrw never coming... so live today and this very moment. Smile and know YOu are the one that can make yourself feel good or bad. not someone else's actions... its all you! 2
cavalier99 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 I still don't know how my ex is managing to move on. I think part of her is probably hurting inside I know how my ex has moved on...After 8 years with me I'm pretty sure my EX is only HURTING INSIDE because of all the MASSIVE amounts honeymoon sex she is having with her new boyfriend..OWCH lol.
ReadMyThread Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 I know how my ex has moved on...After 8 years with me I'm pretty sure my EX is only HURTING INSIDE because of all the MASSIVE amounts honeymoon sex she is having with her new boyfriend..OWCH lol. I'd do anything to be you right now Cav. I don't see how you do it. I know my ex is over me and is having sex with her new guy and I feel like****ing killing him and myself. 1
Author jayy23 Posted December 7, 2012 Author Posted December 7, 2012 I sometimes have these fall in days too man. 5 yrs is a long time. 3 yrs for me and it's tough too. I don't know how someone gives up those yrs worth of great moments. I guess they really have had to find a way to hate us to move on. I still don't know how my ex is managing to move on. I think part of her is probably hurting inside, but her ego won't let her show it. It sucks man.. but it's part of life. We can't always get what we want, when we want and how we want. I learned that the hard way. In life I usually almost always got what I needed.. for once I couldn;t and nor could I control it. Not like you can buy someones love or them back. All I know is slowly time will pass and it won't matter as much anymore. One thing I will say buddy... LIVE life. Enjoy it as if today is your last day. I find then you will feel better. Just imagine tmrw never coming... so live today and this very moment. Smile and know YOu are the one that can make yourself feel good or bad. not someone else's actions... its all you! that's exactly what I've been doing just tryin to enjoy life as much as I can and it's been good but those days where she just pops in my head and won't leave is pretty annoying this Christmas is goina be weird without her it's depressing to think about.
Author jayy23 Posted December 7, 2012 Author Posted December 7, 2012 I'd do anything to be you right now Cav. I don't see how you do it. I know my ex is over me and is having sex with her new guy and I feel like****ing killing him and myself. dude did u delete your fb page?
ReadMyThread Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 dude did u delete your fb page? Yup. Got to the point where I had to tell my sister to change my password to her password and then I deactivated my account so I couldn't even go on there if I wanted to. But I'll admit Everytime I get a hold of a friends phone I'll use their phone to go to the guy she left me for's page to see of she is still talking to him. Lol. I'm just giving up on Facebook. It's only hurts me.
Author jayy23 Posted December 7, 2012 Author Posted December 7, 2012 Yup. Got to the point where I had to tell my sister to change my password to her password and then I deactivated my account so I couldn't even go on there if I wanted to. But I'll admit Everytime I get a hold of a friends phone I'll use their phone to go to the guy she left me for's page to see of she is still talking to him. Lol. I'm just giving up on Facebook. It's only hurts me. Nobother man.
NavyAirTraffic Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 I'd do anything to be you right now Cav. You can be too. Just like a bodybuilder develops calluses on his hands to protect him, you can build calluses around these thoughts. The more you think about it the less emotional impact it'll have on you. The emotion you feel is your body not accepting the truth, and by you resisting the truth coming out, it delays the accepting process. One day months/a year down the road you will finally accept this fact that Cav has already accepted. Unlike you (slowly and painfully pulling it off) Cav decided to dive into the abyss and rip the bandaid off, save himself months of torture. 1
ReadMyThread Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 You can be too. Just like a bodybuilder develops calluses on his hands to protect him, you can build calluses around these thoughts. The more you think about it the less emotional impact it'll have on you. The emotion you feel is your body not accepting the truth, and by you resisting the truth coming out, it delays the accepting process. One day months/a year down the road you will finally accept this fact that Cav has already accepted. Unlike you (slowly and painfully pulling it off) Cav decided to dive into the abyss and rip the bandaid off, save himself months of torture. The first paragraph makes a lot of sense! I have noticed thinking it more takes the pain away. It use to make my stomach turn when I thought about them having sex but now it's just a fact to me and I am starting to accept it. I didn't make her happy and she looked for someone better and who does make her happy while she was with me and seened she had an option and took it. Now she is no longer unhappy with me and is happy with him lol. But they belong together. She wants someone who will never love her as much as I did and he wants someone who cheated on their boyfriend they "loved" and left for him. He wants someone who was talking to him while she was in a relationship with me behind my back. He wants a cheating, young, selfish, immature, lying bitch. They are meant to be.
ReadMyThread Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 past couple of months things have been feeling a lot better than they did but for a couple of days now I've been thinking about her alot to the the point that I'm getting really anxious. I keep getting this really strong feeling that I WANT her back. she has made it clear that she is not interested so I know deep down that getting her back is not goina happen but can't help but think to myself how much I would love for her to change her mind. I keep getting images in my head of her with other guys and it's making me feel angry and upset. she doesn't even want to have anything to do with me anymore I dont get that. things never ended badly and the relationship was really good. nearly 5years together and now she won't even talk to me. Jay I think you may have just ran into a couple of setbacks along the way or something lol. If you start feeling better you CAN'T go back! Lol. Maye it was just one of those lonely moments that got to you. Missing what you two had instead of missing her. I dont know. Man 5 years is a long time. Hang in there man. You got this. How long has it been for NC for you know?
cavalier99 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 EI'd do anything to be you right now Cav. I don't see how you do it. I know my ex is over me and is having sex with her new guy and I feel like****ing killing him and myself. Well it isn't like my recovery has been a leisurely stroll thru the park but it is getting better! I think we maybe all take this heart break stuff too seriously. Were all going to recover eventually no matter what we do (well most of us.anyway...maybe not fredrikkk ) So why worry so much? I'm going with this thought for now. Even if i don't feel it all the time..
ReadMyThread Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 E Well it isn't like my recovery has been a leisurely stroll thru the park but it is getting better! I think we maybe all take this heart break stuff too seriously. Were all going to recover eventually no matter what we do (well most of us.anyway...maybe not fredrikkk ) So why worry so much? I'm going with this thought for now. Even if i don't feel it all the time.. Lol poor Fredrikkk. He will. We all will like you said. It's just a bitch doing so.
LostOne1 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 I think the tough part for us will be getting through the holidays. This will be an odd new yrs and christmas break without the ex for once. This was around the time last yr she introduced me to her family at her brothers party. It was a special time.. 1st time a girl introduced me to her family. Normally it never got that far in any relationship. Good moments... sad to see them gone now. Well guess some day in the future some other girl will introduce her family to me. And I hope that time it's one to stay.
cavalier99 Posted December 7, 2012 Posted December 7, 2012 (edited) I think the tough part for us will be getting through the holidays. This will be an odd new yrs and christmas break without the ex for once. This was around the time last yr she introduced me to her family at her brothers party. It was a special time.. 1st time a girl introduced me to her family. Normally it never got that far in any relationship. Good moments... sad to see them gone now. Well guess some day in the future some other girl will introduce her family to me. And I hope that time it's one to stay. Yeah it might be tough. At the same time it might be a relief. She put a lot of pressure on me around the holidays and her dads b day was on new years. So i was stuck with constant family things and it wasn't just us time. My bday is coming up then Hanukkah with my Sis and her kids. I guess no Christmas this year lol. Cool one less set of gifts. Hate shopping. Hell..Maybe ill order 3 hookers and a limo for my bday. ..better yet ill show up at her house on Christmas and ill be dressed as Santa smoking a huge cigar with my "slutty Santa helpers" on my arms and ill have the limo lit up like Christmas tree with music blasting. Will just say i wanted to quickly drop off a gift and wish her a merry xmas. She hast called me but I'm pretty sure this would guarantee no bread crumbs FOREVER! Ohh g-d my imagination is running wild with this one. Ok that was fun. Time to pray, meditate, then hit the gym! Edited December 7, 2012 by cavalier99
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