SayonaraItsuka Posted December 3, 2012 Posted December 3, 2012 Despite all the successes I've had this semester in college, all the new friends, the new crushes, I still miss my ex-girlfriend. It's been about 3 months, and I still feel like I can't get over her any time soon. I still want her back. She left me for another guy, and I know I should just forget her, because of that, but I really did love her. It's like I feel all these emotions at once like big waves and little waves. Little waves for when I think about her for a minute then move on, but then there are those waves that happen every few weeks where I can't stop thinking about her, especially now since I've had a crush on this girl for a few weeks. I just keep comparing her to my ex, and my ex always wins by a landslide... I just want her back. No girl is the same. I feel like she has to come back. Not today, not tomorrow, or even a few months, but someday.
Author SayonaraItsuka Posted December 3, 2012 Author Posted December 3, 2012 I don't understand what seeing the school shrink means. Can you enlighten me about that?
Author SayonaraItsuka Posted December 3, 2012 Author Posted December 3, 2012 I don't think my college has that. I have a lot of friends there for me anyways, but she never seems to get out of my head. But I do need to stop comparing my current crush to my ex. I know it's not healthy, but I can't help it. I was with this girl for almost 2 years. So many things that we shared, so many memories. I am slowly pursuing my new crush, although apparently she's not into dating right now.
shadow15 Posted December 4, 2012 Posted December 4, 2012 (edited) its been over 2 months for my break up and even after i have accepted it and trying to move on, im still finding myself thinking about the ex every day, mostly stuff i could have done different, even though i know it prolly wouldnt have made a difference. Lack of communication and us not spending time with each other was key in my break up, plus she also seen me more of a best friend and didnt love me anymore. We lost our emotional attachment to each other, stopped having time for us, and when it was she felt as if it was forced. We did everything but sex; however i feel as if we did have sex it would have rekindled the fire and remind her about us. I didnt wanna force sex on her, we both wanted to and i should have suggested it, but i didnt think about it at the time because i thought she wanted to wait you know. Now she has a new bf and the only thing going through my head is lately, what if she sleeps with him, she was the type that wanted to wait for marriage, but since she changed so much lately i dont know if she still feels that way. That kills me because we was together for 2 years, i was the one who made her feel sexually happy for the first time, and the fact of another guy doing that just burns my soul. I feel as if i just opened the doors and used so that she felt comfortable enough to do just a little with me but go all the way with another. I try not to think about it and im good when im busy, but when im not, i just go in a daze. One thing i wish i done was i didnt see the signs when they was going on, she use to tell me, i feel like im being selfish, i want that full college experience; you know having your bf in class with you and just being around on campus, but i also want you. Obviously just thinking about this now makes me think hmm she must have been talking to some dude for a while now, but i didnt see that then and just assumed she was just under stress from nursing school and wanted me there. I wish i argued with her and didnt take a back seat, i thought i was suppose to be the rock for her to lean on, i was being verbally and emotional abused, but i took it cause i thought thats what good bfs do. However i have learned to man the eff up and dont take crap like that. Guess you could say i became a little bitch, but im getting my balls back. Edited December 4, 2012 by shadow15
Author SayonaraItsuka Posted December 4, 2012 Author Posted December 4, 2012 I feel for you, man. Our communication definitely should have been better, but I think we saw each other way too much (like everyday too much). And things like she's doing all the special things we did together with somebody else. But I have to get over her, because she's probably way over me by now, happy with her new boyfriend. And I can't blame you. You were just trying to be a good boyfriend. But we learn from our mistakes. What works and doesn't work. I just have to stand tall again and don't care.
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