She left me about 3 years ago and now i cant stop thinking about her...

[BlueBerryYumYum]

Me and my long distance ex broke up about 3 years ago and we have recently been talking on the phone...i want her back but i dont think she wants me back...i cant stop thinking about her and i havent slept in 5 days because of it...anyways we were in a relationship for about 1 to 2 years total...it was all great untill she started cheating on me and letting me know purposly to hurt me...eventually she stopped and i forgave her...atleast thats what i thought untill she told me that she didnt want me to smoke weed or cigarretes and i didnt stop but i knew if she found out she would leave me...i started lieng to her to avoid talking on the phone...i would have my brother tell her that i was hanging out with friends while i was sitting right next to him and eventually she got tired of constantly calling me to find out that i "wasnt there" and she left me one day after about 3 months of putting up with it...about 2 and a half years later i came clean and told her i cheated on her, lied about smoking, and made my brother lie and lied myself and she got extremely angry...i called her about a week ago and we started talking every day and at night i will sit on the phone with her and wait till she goes to sleep, i tell her how beautiful she is, i tell her how her voice gives me butterflies and i tell her that her laugh is amazing even though she doesnt think so...im pretty sure im not just lusting and i was just hoping someone might be able to give me some advice

Edited November 30, 2012 by BlueBerryYumYum
I forgot to tell the whole story in the first place.

[Toddbt12y1]

To be honest with you...don't pursue any relationship with her. She doesn't seem interested right? And she cheated on you(you on her)...that isdifficult to get past. It seems like a lot of problems...things can change ofc, but going by her lack of wanting to be together shows it all. I wouldn't even be friends with her...kinda constant reminder of pain is not healthy.

Either way...I wouldn't. But you must decide for yourself.

[BlueBerryYumYum]

Well, yea i know and id love to just let it go but its really hard haha...

[justwhoiam]

So your relationship lasted 2 years? And how many times did you meet up in that timeframe? If you're answer is "zero", then we have the answer to many other questions. You were lazy, lying, ignoring her & drug addict... all of that didn't make you so desirable. She was possibly in love with you but it was not enough for her, understandably.

 

Now you say things have changed. It looks like you're both single. You can give it another try. But dynamics should be really different this time. Otherwise it's bound to fail again.

[BlueBerryYumYum]

No, we never met up...i would like to think she wants me back but i dont think she does...and youre 100% right about what i did...but at the same time she did alot to me...itd take like 3 days to write all that i did to her and she did to me and i just dont have time for that...anyways i know its most likely gonna work out but ive forgiven her and i just wish i knew how to get her to forgive me...

[BlueBerryYumYum]

Oh it might help a little to tell you all im 13...and shes about to be 15 on christmas.

[justwhoiam]

Ok, boy, you don't have "relationships" at 11. Enjoy what you have.