not-a-drive-by Posted November 27, 2012 Posted November 27, 2012 (edited) I woke up this morning and heard my parents fighting. Whenever they used to fight or there were problems, I always looked towards my ex for support or just have someone willing to listen to. My heart started feeling really heavy and I could feel the lump in my throat. I just started crying and wanted to scream out how much I miss him and want him back.I wanted to text him to say that I missed him or just have a chat. But I am afraid that any efforts will be ignored. I'm hurting a lot. I want him back, but I don't know if that will ever happen... . And just, the past few days, all these stupid memories of him is creeping back...just all about the festive season - what we did this time last year. Or even during the first year we met. I had to sneak out for a couple of hours just to see him because my parents didn't approve of our relationship in the beginning. How we cherished those moments. Now that we have all the time in the world, we aren't together ... I miss surprising him with gifts and spending a good time with him over Christmas. I would be messaging him about how my day is at work and he would call me to ask how I was doing etc. I miss all this . All these memories are driving me crazy. I feel like I'm going downhill. Edited November 27, 2012 by not-a-drive-by
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