SweetBee82 Posted August 7, 2004 Posted August 7, 2004 I don't know if this is the right subtopic to post this but hey I feel like it. For the past 48 hours, I've been thinking a lot about all my ex-boyfriends/flings. Maybe it's because I miss my current honey or just cuz of the weather. But 1 in particular won't leave my head. I'll give ya a brief story behind this. When I was 18, I got married to Kenny. Quickly, the marriage was rocky. He was doing many bad things and though he kept breaking up with me, when it was time to make up, I kept on taking him back. Then RJ came along. We met by accident. He and I were the same exact age and got so many things in common. I mean instantly, we connected in something I couldn't describe to this day. The moment we kissed, it made all the other kisses seem like child's play. Quickly, I was falling for him... hard. But then I found out he had a girlfriend and I felt very guilty about it. He told me that if he wasn't with her he would be with me. But I knew it wasn't fair to her and just being on that same situation, I couldn't continue it. Then around Christmas, while I was nursing a cold, RJ came over. I wasn't expecting anyone to come over that day but it was nice to see him. We talked about a lot of things (mainly what was up with our lives). Then he leaned over to kiss me and I was hesistant but then I felt something so strong that I just let go, as much as I didn't want to. After RJ left, I called Kenny and told him I wanted a divorce. I finally had the stength to let go my ex. However, I was falling for someone who had someone. So I let him go because I wanted him to be happy and not mess up whatever he had with his girlfriend for me. Now it's been 8 months since I seen or talked to RJ and is much happier. I've taken control of my life and now happily in love with a new man, Rob. (Long story, I posted on another thread!) Oh and the divorce is finalizing! But then the other day, as I was heading home from work, I saw RJ's car parking near the bus stop. I freaked out because I was scared that he would see me or something. Then this morning, I was reinstalling yahoo mess. with my old screen name and saw his screen name. I guess I never deleted it. Now I have an orge to talk to him and thank him for giving me the strength to leave my husband. But I'm afraid that if I do, then those feelings will come back. I did a great job not thinking about him for 8 months but this is now beginning to nag me. Should I just forget about it like I've been doing before or go ahead and talk to him? I know if I don't talk to him, it's going to nag me for a long time. Help!
lioness Posted August 8, 2004 Posted August 8, 2004 If you don't do something to ease the urge to contact him you probably will contact him. And as it sounds like you still have feelings for this guy, getting in touch with him isn't the best idea. So... I suggest that you write him a letter, say all the things that you need to get off your chest, and then burn the letter. You will feel better for having gotten things off your chest and will be able to move on.
Author SweetBee82 Posted August 8, 2004 Author Posted August 8, 2004 Thanks! I was having a panic attack not long ago about this and just read it. Maybe it's cuz I miss my current bf so much that this is making me feel confused and panic. Thanks again!
lioness Posted August 9, 2004 Posted August 9, 2004 Good luck. Just remember - DON'T send him the letter. Destroy it. That's the important part; it is symbolic of letting him go completely.
Author SweetBee82 Posted August 9, 2004 Author Posted August 9, 2004 Don't worry. Who needs a letter when your current honey just sent ya a sweet email telling ya how much he loves me and misses me like crazy. Told ya it's because he wasn't around all week that left me all tense about this.
lioness Posted August 9, 2004 Posted August 9, 2004 Oh- that's great! Just when you needed it, what a guy!
Author SweetBee82 Posted August 9, 2004 Author Posted August 9, 2004 Originally posted by lioness Oh- that's great! Just when you needed it, what a guy! Yeppers! He's been on internet-withdrawl all week!
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