The minute I think I'm done and I'm not gonna care..

[BrokenDreamCatcher]

Then a flood of emotion comes back! UGH! I guess I can't expect to be with someone for 9 yrs and just be able to let it go that easily! But, after finding out where he is tonight! I am doing all I can not to go do something crazy, like go where he is and confront both of them! Let her know what a liar he is!

 

But he just got back from Texas...and his last week there, I wrote him and told him, I could feel something was going on and to just be truthful with me.

He said no there is not anything, and I don't want you out of my life.

I told him well it feels as if you have chosen her over me though. You blocked and deleted me off of FB, so that she can be free to post and tag you in whatever she wants, and I can't see it and say anything! then you LIE and say you are staying the last night that you were here, yet I find out you went out and SHE was there!

I don't know what really is going on but none of this makes any sense to me.

 

So he has been home for 2 days now, and since being home has barely talked to me, said he was too tired. Ok, I go with that, I understand.

Oh, but guess where he is tonight? I found out he went to a concert thing with freinds and of course SHE is there! I was invited to this thing and I know where it is, and I have half a mind to show up!!!! Talk me out of it!

I am so pissed off! How are you gonna go from begging and crying and pleading your love to me, from a f**k up you did! Then, like light switch turn on me again, and there is a girl in the picture at the same time..try to have your mom and sister and you convince me she is JUST A FRIEND! Yet, you can go out with her and you have not seen me since you left 5 wks ago?!?! Eyt the time you were gone asking me to send you dirty pics!!And when I TRY to do NC you CONTACT ME! WTF!!

 

I'm so angry tonight at wasting 9 yrs...at allowing him to suck me back in again after everything, to only do it again! Now, I am 35, single, childless, and alone, and one pissed off woman!

 

But, I need to not go down there where they are right? Even if I was invited? Why won't he just be honest with me?

[clueless5520669]

was in the same situation, this person does not care about you. just move on. easy said than done - but i'm in the same stage as you - the initial one and trust me it hurts - next time ignore and stick to NC. it truly works, this person is not worth your time.