Can't stop thinking about her!! Want her back!

[legaspi147]

So here is my story, it may be a little different but I hurt just the same! I'm a lesbian and my partner of five years is bisexual. When we met it was a whirlwind romance, everything was wonderful. We started living together about 6 months after meeting. As soon as I moved (Ihad to sell my house and quit my job to move to her town) I noticed something different in how she treated me. I got myself into some financial trouble after moving in and spent a lot of my time thinking about it and she felt that I was too self-absorbed. Six months after moving in, she cheated on me with another woman. I forgave her, or tried to. But I never trusted her again. I knew she was still texting her ex-lover and I would go out of town a lot but felt that she was not sleeping with her. In order to get our finances under control, we moved to a smaller place. I knew she wasn't happy and tried everything I could think of to make her happy. For some reason, leaving her didn't fit the bill. We were sleeping in separate bedrooms and we basically roomies who had sex every once in a while. In February of this year, I was on my way to work when I saw this guy walking up to the house. Found out it was her boyfriend! I freaked out! I moved out a week later but we have pretty much communicated almost daily since then. I have tried to win her back! I found out this guy is abusive towards her and does drugs. We were going to counseling in June and July and I thought we were on the road to reconciliation when she told me in August that she was pregnant. She saw him one last time in May and they had sex. At first, I was upset but we had been doing so well I thought that we could raise the baby as our own. Then she said she needed to tell him because it was his and he had never had a child and wanted one. The problem is is that until three weeks ago, she has told me that she loves me, misses me, she knows that we're meant to be together but it is so complicated with him and I think she is scared of him in some way. He is homophobic to say the least and thinks I have been taking advantage of her all this time. But I do love her. She has problems and I have problems. But I don't understand the constant lying and leading me on. she is also lying to him as well, whether she admits it or not. I need advice. Do I just walk away? I have been in no contact for 7 days now. She hasn't bothered to call or text either I've noticed. And please do not give me any negative feedback regarding us being gay. Love is love. So is heartache!

[Kelly15]

you are better off to cut contact for awhile

[Cb3657]

I really don't think your partner is committed at all to you or your relationship, she justs wants to feel loved but can't get that from this guy she likes so she comes to you, you give her all you have then she is ready to return to him.

I think you are trying to be a savior to this lady but let's face it she is now a volunteer in this dudes abuse circus, worst of all you get to pull her out brush her off and send her in for another round. Get out to save your sanity.