sirelove Posted November 22, 2012 Posted November 22, 2012 (edited) I still have feelings for this girl but not quite sure what i feel. i was the dumpee about a year ago. it was ugly. we really loved each other and where planning marraige and a future. We broke up because of a single alcohol fueled arguement!!!!!!! It was a kinda crazy. i said a lot of horrible things that i dont remeber and i woke up with a bloody nose! she went nc, and i freaked out for about 7 months from begging her back, that turned to dissing her on voicemails and text after i found out she stopped by my jobs and spread rumours about me, i was pissed! she used to run and or hide when she saw me! (we live down the block from each other). recently after reading and absorbing all this info, i have been n/c for the last 3 months and focusing on bettering my life (no alcohol and lots of exercise) lost 25lbs woot woot!. and now she acts different. it dropped down to just ignoring each other when we pass by, then more recently she stares at me. I saw her last week while crossing the street after not seeing her for a month or two, i was waiting for the light to change, when she noticed me she instantly turned to walk the other way. but then she just stopped and stared at me for seriously what fealt like two minutes. I was taken by shock and also embarrased by the way i acted in the past. i started to giggle a little, and although tempted to go up and say hi, i figured it be best to keep my distance so i shyly smiled and waved at her. it looked like she wanted to say something to me, then suddenly she turned away and continued. i didnt waste a second and continued on my way. little did i know there was a girl to the right of me walking at my pace so it looked like we were together! what do you think is going on in her head ? is she upset she saw me with someone else? do you think shes regretting things.? maybe it would be ok to approach and just say hi? or should i let her do it? even if shes trhowing wierd signals like that. the last thing i want is to be rejected yet again! i did slip and called her but she didnt pick up( might have been sleeping)i know casue we have similiar schedules... i didnt leave a message or anything. now that ive managed to break her spell im very cautious with her. cause i never want to feel like that about anyone again. i know that i was her most favorite boyfriend ever, she had told me several times during the relationship, and i feel the same way about her. i wish i had a freaking time machine with the knowledge that i have today. what you guys think> Edited November 22, 2012 by sirelove
Sav Posted November 22, 2012 Posted November 22, 2012 I think you need to stay in NC for a very long time. You're clearly not over her and chances are you are the only one who is having thoughts in your head, not her
Author sirelove Posted November 22, 2012 Author Posted November 22, 2012 (edited) you may be right, last time i actually spoke to her face to face (months ago) i told her i loved her and id make things right. at first she started giggling then she ran away, then stopped then stated crying. it was so wierd!!!!!! i cant read her. and why did she stop ignoring me, and start staring at me. this has happened several times in the last few months, scince i went completely n/c Edited November 22, 2012 by sirelove
Kelly15 Posted November 22, 2012 Posted November 22, 2012 sounds like a movie, both wanted to say something but didnt because of fear or pride. if it looked like a girl was talking to you she def wasnt going to come over
Kelly15 Posted November 22, 2012 Posted November 22, 2012 if she started crying , she probably still has some feelings
Author sirelove Posted November 22, 2012 Author Posted November 22, 2012 It seriously feels like a movie! But I finally got my pride back and stopped texting and calling a few month ago... And now she starts this? I know she's leaving back to Japan for a for holidays. I think I will stay n/c till I see her next few reactions over the next few months. What do you think? Ughh and her bday is tommorow .. Oh well!
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