The Things I Hate Right Now...

[ReadMyThread]

1. All these stupid f******* love songs on the radio they play all day long.

2. The songs that remind of her that get played.

3. Now I seriously have NO FRIENDS because I pretty much threw them all away because she was my best friend.

4. KNOWING the guy she left me for when she left me the first time and knowing what he looks like. I actually shook this f******* guy's hand! When it was "me and her" we were at a family event and there Mr. perfect was. I got inteoduced to him and seen this f***** and shook his hand. Do you know how that feels? Shaking the hand of the guy who was f******* the girl who "loves" you?

5. She has a HUGE support line for this. She has A BUNCH of friends and her family is ALWAYS there for her. She has 4 sisters she get to talk to. I have none. Nobody.

6. KNOWING she will get over this way quicker than I will. In fact she already has. She was my first true love so I hate it knowing she is already over it and here I am not and feel like I never will (I know I will).

7. KNOWING she will find someone and fall in love with them before I do. She goes to all these parties now and gets drunk and meets all these new people and I know she will end up f******* one of these dudes and they will go from there and fall in love while I'm over here all alone.

8. KNOWING she is talking to other guys right now.

9. She deleted me off Facebook when she dumped me the second time. That drove me crazy. I was going to go delete and block her and I sseen as had already deleted me. It seriously stung inside for a second and drove me crazy to why she did that. Not anymore though. I'm happy she did. I think?

10. The second time she left me she said,"now looking back we did EVERYRHING wrong in our relationship the first time." Everything!? So she pretty much was saying she regretted even being with me those 9 months and falling in love with me. Ouch.

11. The last thing she said to me when she left me the second time..."it's not the same as it use to be. I don't want to lead you on and hurt you even more. I know how you feel. I love you." this still drives me crazy. I don't know what it means. Either she KNOWS she will hurt me again and is protecting me from it or she is waiting for the other guy to come back. He dumped her.

12. She changed.

13. She doesn't love me anymore.

14. She never will love me anymore.

15. I'm all alone. I do nothing now. We use to spend EVERY minute together and now it's gone.

16. Everything she did to me.

17. Her.

 

And you want to know what the stupid messed up part about all this is!? I STILL have hope me and her would work. Lol. I KNOW we would NEVER work but I still have hope and it's killin me. I think,"Oh she is just still hung up on her rebound guy because they ended in the honeymoon phase and will miss me again and will come back when she gets lonely. I m know she will be back. The next timeshe gets hurt or dumped she will realize what she had with me and will want it again. Its just this other guy in the picture that is ruining everything. He leaves for boot camp for the army in Januaray and whe. He is gone she will miss me then. Watch.". Lol. Even thought I know we will never work I seem to think this in my head. I hate it. She is my first love. I think that why I have this stupid hope that I can't let go of. I've never felt this way about any girl and I'm scared I won't get it again I guess. That's what's holding me I think. I don't know. I just hate everything about this. I wish it was over. Or I wish she would grow the hell up and realize what I felt for her and what we had. I can't even talk to any new girl without it feeling wierd. :/. I guess I jus. Have to get use to being alone huh? while she is over there f******* random dudes every night and will eventually find one she truly likes and bam! They are in love. I hate her. I hate Everything. I hate the world lol. It's so unfair.

[Chi townD]

Okay, well.....it's good to vent. But, lets stop with the pity party.

 

You have self worth and most things on that list, you have the power to change! Stop sitting around watching the world go by you! Join the human race again and get out there! MAKE POSITIVE CHANGES IN YOUR LIFE!!! Join a club! Cycling club, running club, community theather! SOMETHING!! On a side note, THAT'S how you meet people! Any hobby you have usually has some kind of club in your community. You need to keep busy!! There are adventurer's clubs! Don't believe me? Google it! Where these people get together and plan some kind of adventure. Like climbing the sierra mountains and crap! GET INVOLVED!!!! DON'T LET HER BEAT YOU!!!!

[ReadMyThread]

Okay, well.....it's good to vent. But, lets stop with the pity party.

 

You have self worth and most things on that list, you have the power to change! Stop sitting around watching the world go by you! Join the human race again and get out there! MAKE POSITIVE CHANGES IN YOUR LIFE!!! Join a club! Cycling club, running club, community theather! SOMETHING!! On a side note, THAT'S how you meet people! Any hobby you have usually has some kind of club in your community. You need to keep busy!! There are adventurer's clubs! Don't believe me? Google it! Where these people get together and plan some kind of adventure. Like climbing the sierra mountains and crap! GET INVOLVED!!!! DON'T LET HER BEAT YOU!!!!

 

I HAD to get it out lol. I'm feeling better already from it. I won't let her beat me. All I need is time. Time heals everything. I'm just scared about how much time I will need. I wish I could fast forward like 5 months. I'd be set. I think. I'd hope. Lol. This girl sure did a number on me I swear lol. F****** b****!

[cloudatlas]

Haha! Okay, how about a list of things you love right now? Things you love about you? Why are YOU awesome. And how can you be MORE awesome?

 

Also, yeah. Hate those songs on the radio. Play something not about love and broken hearts, won't you? There's so much more in the world.

 

Also! I know I know - if that guy/girl/alien wasn't there, she'd never leave! She'd love me! But, really, that means in her heart there's always someone better. It's not that other guy's fault.

[magnoliasoutherly]

I don't care if you have a pity party. I thought that's what the boards were about!

 

You have to have time to heal. I don't know how long it has been, but healing time is different for everyone. You will get it again. Trust me. It doesn't feel like it, I know. It's hard when you really care about someone and you really do believe that.

 

Here's something I wrote (it's off-site and yes, it was rant but it illustrates what I went through) about that very thing. Notice the part where my husband told me no one would ever love me like him. Notice too that no one EVER replied. Must've blown their minds went I went off like a bomb. LOL!

 

You can PM me if you want to vent (if you can, I've read where some can't for some reason) and if not here, then look me up at the link above. User name is the same either way.

 

Day by day. That's what it takes.

[ReadMyThread]

Haha! Okay, how about a list of things you love right now? Things you love about you? Why are YOU awesome. And how can you be MORE awesome?

 

Also, yeah. Hate those songs on the radio. Play something not about love and broken hearts, won't you? There's so much more in the world.

 

Also! I know I know - if that guy/girl/alien wasn't there, she'd never leave! She'd love me! But, really, that means in her heart there's always someone better. It's not that other guy's fault.

 

Lol. That list probably would be more smart here lol. I wish I could corr the love songs on the radio lol. At work is where this is an issue. They keep the radio on all day and it's all love songs and when I try to turn it off they turn it back on :/ polo I'm like s***. I work with nothing but Mexicans so every now and then I change it the Mexican station where I have no idea what they are satin or singing lol. But they change it from time to time and it hurts.

 

Ouch!!! Reading that las part hurt lol but it is very true and better to look at it that way. Thanks.

[CptSaveAho]

These posts are healthy... nothing wrong with them

[KatZee]

Now lets make a post about things you love right now!

 

1. The sun is shining!

2. Your house didn't float away in Hurricane Sandy

3. You have a working heart that has loved and will love again.

4. Someone better is out there waiting to meet you!

5. Now you can do whatever you want when you want.

6. It's Thanksgiving in about 36 hours. Eat all the pumpkin pie and turkey you want!

7. Almost Christmas decoration time!

8. You don't have to share the bed. #SPRAWLER!

9. No more drama.

10. 24/7 guy time.

 

 

Come on! Add on!

[ReadMyThread]

I don't care if you have a pity party. I thought that's what the boards were about!

 

You have to have time to heal. I don't know how long it has been, but healing time is different for everyone. You will get it again. Trust me. It doesn't feel like it, I know. It's hard when you really care about someone and you really do believe that.

 

Here's something I wrote (it's off-site and yes, it was rant but it illustrates what I went through) about that very thing. Notice the part where my husband told me no one would ever love me like him. Notice too that no one EVER replied. Must've blown their minds went I went off like a bomb. LOL!

 

You can PM me if you want to vent (if you can, I've read where some can't for some reason) and if not here, then look me up at the link above. User name is the same either way.

 

Day by day. That's what it takes.

 

Yeah see! All I need is time. Lol. It heals everything. Although I don't think you want me to PM you. You would hear the same thing EVERYDAY that is running trough my head everyday lol.

[LostOne1]

Now lets make a post about things you love right now!

 

1. The sun is shining!

2. Your house didn't float away in Hurricane Sandy

3. You have a working heart that has loved and will love again.

4. Someone better is out there waiting to meet you!

5. Now you can do whatever you want when you want.

6. It's Thanksgiving in about 36 hours. Eat all the pumpkin pie and turkey you want!

7. Almost Christmas decoration time!

8. You don't have to share the bed. #SPRAWLER!

9. No more drama.

10. 24/7 guy time.

 

 

Come on! Add on!

 

Surprisingly the sun was shining today for a bit, I was pretty down today on the bus, but I sat in and saw the sun.. it was weird it was raining, but the sun was out.

 

Glad I still have a house and family.

 

I do have a working heart, but it's lost it's way for now and doesn't know what it wants anymore.

 

I'm sure someone is out there...

 

Doing what ever I want when ever I want sucks.. I used to have a few hobbies, but when I go for them I feel guilty. My ex always made me feel bad for spending more time on my hobbies at times and not on her. So now when I spend time on a hobby I feel good for a bit, then I feel bad, sad and guilty. Like I lost her, because of my hobbies.

 

Xmas will suck, my grandma passed away in the summer and my family decided we won't celebrate xmas. I think it's a family tradition not to since it's a year of mourning.

 

Yeah no more drama with the ex and having to deal with it is good actually. But now I have this spare time and I don't know what to use it on.

 

haha I could add on.

 

I mean We have our health, were still alive, I think most of us are still young, we still have a chance to do something someway, we still have each other as a community, and we still have some of our friends and family. Lastly.. we still have hope... hope that things will get better for us.

[dyzfunctioned]

I can definitely get behind some of those.

 

Let it out man... I've been bitching to a friend constantly, posting on here and while I still feel like utter, complete, pile of **** every day, releasing some of my thoughts here provides a moment of relief and even if all people say are give it time, the fact someone is taking time out of their day to read your **** is encouraging.

 

Hang in there man.

[Simon Phoenix]

Honestly, this isn't a bad thing. If it helps you knock her from that pedestal you got her on, then vent.

[LostOne1]

I can definitely get behind some of those.

 

Let it out man... I've been bitching to a friend constantly, posting on here and while I still feel like utter, complete, pile of **** every day, releasing some of my thoughts here provides a moment of relief and even if all people say are give it time, the fact someone is taking time out of their day to read your **** is encouraging.

 

Hang in there man.

 

same here.. I kinda feel bad bugging my friends about it over and over just venting. But one of my friends has been through something similar as me and so he gets it and always meets up to let me vent out.

 

Then I post here to vent out too... but I always feel like it's never fully released. I feel good at times then want to vent out again.

 

I guess it will only stop when the pain goes away over time and my mind and body finally get fed up of it all.

[magnoliasoutherly]

You would hear the same thing EVERYDAY that is running trough my head everyday lol.

LOL!!! You have a good humor about it, so that's an amazing first step.

[ReadMyThread]

LOL!!! You have a good humor about it, so that's an amazing first step.

 

I'm trying lol. Just wish it would be over already. I hate this.

[suladas]

I listened to all the love/break up songs on purpose. Some of them are just plain good songs. Plus after a while you listen to them and no longer feel anything and just back to being a good song, with a bit of new meaning to them. I like doing things like that, because it makes it easy to see the progress you are making.

 

Eventually you'll realize she was nothing special and there is millions of other women out there.

 

I came here like 2 months ago just as bad and am 100% fine now, and I still my ex nearly everyday. Time is an amazing thing.