BrokeHeart Posted November 20, 2012 Posted November 20, 2012 (edited) Hi out there, I'll try to keep it short... Me and my ex gf were together for 1 and half years. Last May she broken with me, we were doing well but then we started having loads of arguments over everything... We both strong characters (at least I thought I was) and we just started making more and more difficult for each other and argue over everything. After we split up she asked me to stay friends, I accept cos she is the best thing ever happened to me until I had to tell her I couldn't be her friends cos I love her too much. Since then she has almost cut contacts with me (of course) and we were talking every night and few times even went out together but now we barely talk. Also not long ago she's find out her little boy has autism and you can imagine what her priority is and I don't blame actually always been very supportive to her. Unfortunately we cant stop all contacts cos we work together and 2-3 times a week we will be sitting almost next to each and some weekends we have shift finishing at 10 pm, just me and her in the office... It's crazy. She is against us telling anyone in the office we're not together, she said it's none of their business (a friend thinks she is jealous other girls might approach me); she has recently pushed for me to go to the upcoming company's Christmas party (we kissed for the first time at a previous one); I have been unwell and she has text few times asking how I was feeling, even if she's been quite distant. On Saturday we worked together and I told her it's been difficult for me and made her understand I'm still in love, even cos I had sent her an email few weeks before where I said I was finally ready to change. Than on Sunday we worked together and she was making fun of me and playing with me in a flirty way? We both had a difficult childhood for different reasons. I don't look for her never, I have closed my facebook and whatsapp so not to check on how she is getting along with life. I asked her if she is seeing anyone and she told me she has other priorities and not bothered but last Sunday I got hold of an email she has sent to this guy (who didnt remember her) but I know she gave him her facebook and I'm positive they're talking there... My sister said it doesnt mean they're gonna sleep together or anything but still it shows me she is on the search and ready to date again. Now she is getting more and more distant and we barely talk, but then sometimes she plays and gets in touch for silly reasons... I have had different girlfriends in my life but never fell in love before this one and now I feel like my whole life is over. Im not interested in dating or meeting another woman; I have been faithful and treated her like a princess; even asked her to marry me (first time I ever did that) and finally even got her name tattooed but I was over protective and jealous when it came to her. Now, I've been reading a lot recently and it seems if I cut her off and instead of expressing my feeling show her I am not interested any more she might come back cos right now she feels too stressed and pressured. But again, what if she gets together with this guy? Also the Xmas party is coming up in few weeks and it could go from the best party to the worse ever. Please people, help me and give me as many advice as possible as you can... I literally lost my head for her and I am heartbroken as I never thought I would be. I am not interested in other women, she is all I need. Edited November 20, 2012 by BrokeHeart Forgot something
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