cloudatlas Posted November 17, 2012 Posted November 17, 2012 Again, I'm allergic to being too personal because I'll end up in a rant. But. Broken promises & betrayal & getting no apology ( even if you have apologized & etc) and just - I can't deal with it. I'm fine, and I have these days where I can't stand anything anymore, and I can't deal with the ****ing loss of everyone I cared about. So. I can't. I just want to yell & freak out & everything. I've done theraphy. It's not that. I just want to - I don't need closure. I just need to get of the anger and loss and the want to call just to fume and the fact that that would make me feel better. I just want him to understand. Christ, that's all I wanted. How do you stop that? The anger? That need for someone to just understand - augh.
CopingGal Posted November 18, 2012 Posted November 18, 2012 When I had surges of anger, which was very, very often, I posted in the "Post here instead of contacting your ex" thread in the coping forum. Sometimes I posted several times a day. I just posted and posted and posted when I needed to. I didn't care how many times I posted, I just did it. It helped some. My situation was not a typical break up situation, and my anger reflected that. I had lull in my anger and I had super highs...but for the most part I was very angry for over a year. But what really kicked the anger out of me was really, truly coming to realize that my ex was a sick person...very, very sick and dysfunctional. I talked about it all the time, but I think I never really came to terms with it in the past. But now I've come to terms with how sick and dysfunctional he is...I've really come to terms with that and when I did that a great deal of the anger left me.
Author cloudatlas Posted November 26, 2012 Author Posted November 26, 2012 Copinggal! I never thanked you or responded to your post - I was going a bit stir crazy last week. I'm working on it, of course. But I'd love to thank you for recommending that thread, I've seen it but didn't quite consider to post on it, so I decided to. Public venting to strangers is surprisingly helpful, so thank you. As it goes, I've read some of your posts and threads and honestly, you're so very strong.
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