suladas Posted November 18, 2012 Posted November 18, 2012 It's so strange how some days can be so much easier and some can be soooo hard lol. This whole week went by and I got one text from her. Up until right now, it's been surprisingly easy to distract myself. Tonight for no apparent reason is just really getting to me and I can't figure it out! Driving me nuts right now! It's weird I think everyone goes through it. Some days just suck, then the next could be great even for no reason.
Author golk Posted November 18, 2012 Author Posted November 18, 2012 Very true. It's just so weird. All I've been doing lately is telling myself she's gone forever, never coming back, and is already over the relationship. Whether it's true or not, it helps me think more clearly and logically and really helps me look at the big picture of living my life. But then there's days like today that I just can't help but think about her all day long. I guess there's always bumps in the road.
Author golk Posted November 20, 2012 Author Posted November 20, 2012 Today is a really tough day. Haven't heard from her for a while and I really have the urge to contact her! Really struggling today and it sucks.
suladas Posted November 20, 2012 Posted November 20, 2012 That sucks, just keep at it and eventually the urge will lessen. Just remember if you give in you're back at day 1 and it is even harder. I can tell you it does get better.
Author golk Posted November 24, 2012 Author Posted November 24, 2012 (edited) So a lot of things have happened recently over this Thanksgiving holiday. I was up to about 11 days NC and it was starting to get a little easier because I wasn't expecting to hear from her. Also a little harder because the missing her feeling was really kicking in. Anyways I saw her at my local bar randomly with a bunch of our mutual friends who happened to be in town. Played it very cool for a few hours and only said hi to her, nothing more. Then she started trying to get my attention and as I was intoxicated, it worked. We went outside and made out, told me she missed me, blah blah all that good stuff. Told me how she's absolutely positive that she needs to get over me because she hasn't moved on but is determined to break this attachment. Wants to just be single with all of her single friends... Okay sure. And well now I am back to square one. Great. It's only been a week so not that big of a deal but still sucks. Then she texts me on Thanksgiving and yesterday for a while. Telling me that we both need to "experience life", live a little at our age, have fun, same old. Also she told me that everytime she sees me it sets her back to day one and it makes it harder. So this just absolutely reassures me that there's absolutely nothing I can do, because it's not me. GIGS situation forsure. In this type of situation I can't win except by moving on and letting go. It's a minor setback but Determined to stick to NC now. Edited November 24, 2012 by golk Forgot to say something
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