Keep think about him

[SpiderLove]

I did myself some harm by watching one of my favorite movies last night.; The Notebook. The reason why I'm addicted to this darn movie is because it remind me soooo much of me and him. He was my freaking Noah . Noah reminds me of him in a way.

 

But, now, we're split. We've been split for about 10 months. I believe it was because my parents. Just like in the Notebook, he was no good for me. But it's sooo stupid, and annoying. AND I'm freaking out everyday. I don't even know if he wants me any more. And I think if I knew that he didn't want me anymore I could move on. Maybe..

 

Idk. It's really bothering me though. He told me months ago that he still loved me. But he didn't want me to know. I've aggregated him. He doesn't want to talk to me except every once an a while to see how I'm doing.

 

I take it, that I may just be too crazy for him, and he's too nice to admit it. I just wish I could be apart of his life again. I wish I could be his Allie. I wish I found out that he either still wants me or he has moved on. I wish my parents wouldn't be disappointed that I feel this way about him.

 

They think that I'm over him. They even said that one day I may move on and I was just young with lots of feelings. That I'll find someone else. I'm 19 now. I'm clearly not over him. And it's like stressing me everyday.

[not-a-drive-by]

My parents think I'm over him too. Or maybe they don't bring up the subject anymore because it really upsets me and they are being quiet about it. I still avoid romance movies as it takes a stab at my heart.

 

What your parents say is true - that you will move on one day. The time it takes you will be different to another person. But I know where you are coming from. A heartbreak is a heartbreak, no matter what age you are.

[SpiderLove]

You're right about that.

 

But I feel like I can move on once I know he's over me. Other guys have come and gone, but it was never like it was with him =/.