martina34 Posted November 10, 2012 Posted November 10, 2012 So yesterday I turned my book in to my agent, she read it, and today she sent it to my editor. This is what I have wanted my whole entire life. This should, therefore, if one is to extrapolate, be the best day of my life. But what did I write about in my journal today? Him. What did I write about in my journal yesterday? Him. What did I do to celebrate? Took myself to a movie (The Orphanage, scary, recommended), and sat and cried over him in the dark. Why am I so pathetic? It would really be nice to be able to enjoy this, but instead I've been crying for two days. Sat in my therapist's office yesterday and said, "I turned in my book," and then for the rest of the hour I talked about him and cried. I really do want to get over him...that is, if I can't marry him and make him happy for the rest of his days. Why do I feel like a loser, today of all days? Why am I STILL f**king beating myself up for not being a f**king musician? I'm starting to get really angry with myself. I should be able to be happy today, dammit. On a positive note, a friend came over last night and brought the Simpsons movie, and I laughed until my sides hurt. Highly recommended for post-breakup pain. ("Try to throw something away, Cletis!" "Ah cain't! Ah just cain't!")
journey31 Posted November 10, 2012 Posted November 10, 2012 I'm so sorry. I can't get over my guy either
NavyAirTraffic Posted November 11, 2012 Posted November 11, 2012 Just a shot in the dark here... Those "couples moments" are the toughest. Whenever something really good or bad happens in your life, you tend to turn to your bf/gf to share the experience. I'm guessing that this is just a rough patch in getting over him. Something really good has happened/is happening to you and that event is magnifying the fact that you have nobody intimate to share these experiences with. On a positive note, going through several of these "couples moments" by yourself really speeds up the getting over process. Over time you begin to lose the dependency and learn to deal with the good/bad things that happen to you by yourself. You'll know you're over him when a "couples moment" happens and you don't think of/feel the need to contact him. Again, that was a shot in the dark.
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