Email regret

[Sugarkane]

I'd ask him how does his wife feel about him contacting you?!

[beyond]

You say this guy has changed but apparently he is still the same jerk he always was. I had an ex like this that blamed everything on me even though he wanted to be single. I had to cut him completely off for my own sanity. I don't regret cutting him off.

 

I mean he has changed from when I first knew him years ago. I really loved him and part of me always will, but since he has come back into my life this time around, he does seem different.

 

Maybe I was blinded by love back then, but I really don't think so - apart from the very end when he started acting strangely due to GIGS, he was a great BF and seemed to feel the same about me. Still, it doesn't really matter what he was like back then, or if I've changed or he has changed or both of us - what matters is we are not good together now.

 

I've woken up this morning and to be honest I don't feel that awful 'heartbroken' feeling that I have in the past. I just feel very disappointed.

[beyond]

Just got another email from him (didn't even recognise the email address, he has many).

 

He says he has been been laughing thinking abot what I said and how 'cute' I am when I'm angry (!) and that 'when I get a grip of myself' to call him.

 

How patronizing!!!

[beyond]

I feel at peace with it all now.

 

No matter what happens now, anything he does or doesn't say or do, I know he is not the man for me.

 

Any hurt I feel is actually just my ego at being rejected - not about losing HIM specifically.

 

I am very fortunate and have a great life. If someone wonderful comes along who adds to that, then great. Otherwise being on my own is pretty great too.

 

I still don't hate him, some of his actions yes, but not him. I actually feel sorry for him....after all he doesn't have me!

 

Thank you everyone for talking me through this hiccup in my healing

 

xx